Cigarette smokes fills my nostrils as my head rests on my pillow.
Wet cheeks begin to warm as my anxiety intensifies.
2:30am
No sleep
Hungry but full
Tired but overwhelmed with insomnia

Mirrors surround me as I try and close my eyes but gently weep.
The glare so vivid, I can still see the monsters watch me sleep.
Oh wait, their inside my head.
4:27am
Hands in my hair
Legs won’t stay still
Tongue is begging for a drink.
I’m hopeless.

When will the nightmares stop?
Will I ever be able to dream without seeing a glimpse of my past?
Where can I hide from my demons?
Why do i let myself get this down?
How do I make the loud quiet?
I’m hopeless.

7:21am and finally fell asleep.
The light shining through the window breathes warmth on my bare feet.
Another day, another reminder that darkness will fall once again.
My eyes will remain open until I am no more.