I been feeling the weakness,
I bury it deep inside.
But when I find myself all alone it says "I WILL NO LONGER HIDE".
Maybe I should say a prayer for myself,
not for me now but my near future in life,
but then again I can think some more and know that there will be the usual price.
First I lay down my pride and know this needs to come to end,
then I think back to all that I've done today and quit playing pretend.
I probably got my whole life ahead of me, but first I just leave my shame
and trust it all will be something different and never back to the same.
But **** that now cause I'm paralyzed.
Don't want to live but I'm scared to die.
At least without proper closure,
and perhaps to find a special one and get the special chances to hold her.
But I have no room in my heart for love letters,
and if she's out there then I'm just a second guesser.
And in my mind I'm all alone anyway.
Perhaps it's that if when someone's entered in I end up again somehow a castaway.
But here I am with the stress, along with the pressure, and  all the pain
And why my life puts all this on me I don't know forget just what it hopes to gain.