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B Chapman Sep 2017
I am insignificant.
I am unlovable.
I am the abomination that travels time
     in my mind,
never finding peace of this life.
Reality overwhelms and depletes me
for I am undeserving.
I am nothing.

I am the echo of a mother who had no
     affection,
the image of a grandmother sick and
     divinely twisted,
the mimic of my father and all of his
     masculinity
channeled into the pound of a fist.
I am the heart of this home- empty,
my void filled with self loathing.
Pain.
Suffering.

How do I accept this daily?
How do I find the motivation to use
     my tongue,
to speak out?
How do I climb above what is done to
     me?
I don't.

Happiness was never meant for me.
Love was never to be a piece of my
     future.
I am this,
the ghost that fades through life, touching no one,
hearing everything,
feeling it all.
And I weep.

I weep for what I never had,
but always imagined to be in my
     grasp.
I weep for the loss that is my life.
The suffering.
The abuse.
The constant, dismal dismission.
For that is all I’m worthy of,
this is all I was meant to be.
Nothing.

I am the ghost.
A small poem I wrote while completing a manuscript. It was adjusted into the novel because it not only fit me, but my character.

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