You know that feeling when
You stand up too quickly
And suddenly everything
Goes dark and just for a
Split second you feel like
You're floating in space-
the unknown.

Then a burst of color splashes
Across your eyes!
You're back on the ground.
And you struggle for a bit
To regain your bearings.
Then realize everything will be okay?

This is called a head rush.
In medical terms, it is
"a sudden drop in blood pressure
and coordination when a person
stands up too quickly."

Not too far off from what I felt
When I found out I loved you
And that you loved me too.

I lost my balance and
My life had been a constant
State of just everything going
Dark as I rushed into things
Without thought or constraint.
In school, in sports, in relationships...

Each attempt in the hopes of
Getting that splash of color
Yet I was left in the unknown-
The darkness.
Left behind...
Left wanting and wandering.

Then You--
you who had been
There all along,
you, whom I've Spoken to
a thousand times before,

Appear in front of my eyes,
Seemingly out of nowhere,
And like the true artist
That you are,

Start to paint my world
With color again.

I stand up and feel myself grow
faint
so I just sit there and wait for it to
pass.
But as I sit there, I feel
fainter.
My ability to comprehend and think
vanishes.
I sit, accepting what will happen,
Until
I
*Faint