To the people who read this ..

For a peice of mind
You need too imagine a minute
A world without war
Without poverty
Without chaos
Without the brainwashing society
Do you get it
Maybe not on my level but one of some kind
Do you ever feel out of place ?
Like you don't belong
Like your not even apart of this race ?
Humans?
Beings with limbs so long
What the **** are they anyway
A parasite as some would say
A loser with the words I type
And the thoughts I have

I refuse to say goodbye
Specially when your all that matters
My mind without you scatters
And all I wanna do is cry
I've lived before without you
But that was before I met you
Now I'm just lost and don't know what to do :(
I can't and I won't get over you
Just please tell me what it is I have to do

I miss the living **** out of you
                         And I love you I do ! :'(
At least I know there was a time you said "I love you too"  <3

I wanna get high
That's for sure
The pressure is on
Weight is heavy
And could easily be lifted
A simple plunge
A simple pinch
I'll feel loved and gifted
It's bad how much I miss it
But my life is a mission
And it can't be lost to addiction
Just gotta survive this extra friction
And instead of just flippin
I need to learn to listen

You make me strong
You make me weak
You make me feel like I belong
Even when the words you speak
You tell me of a life not so long (ago)
One I didn't know existed
One I couldn't remember
It all took over so quickly
I didn't know what to do
Or what you expected of me
But we hooked up mid December
Things were rocky things got rough
But I knew inside it was you I love
For you I'd just about go through (hell)

I thought of you today
And you weren't there
And I'm prouder then ever
More concerned about the party life
The party style
Can't settle down
Cause you'd rather live so wild
It's been 4 months
I know it's not long but it's still awhile
I feel a lot better I even smile

I needed you today
And you aren't here
Almost don't wanna wake  
If it's another day like today
I miss our silly talks
And all the jokes we used to crack
I know this probably isn't what you wanna hear
But I'm done putting my life at stake
No more bowls
No more hot rails
No more time wasted thinking you care
No more doing self harm
Cuz I know in the end you aren't really there

I lied
It wasn't big
But still I did :(
Why did I lie?
I don't know
We talked
You yelled
I made you cry
Because I lied
Why did I lie?
I don't know
But still I lied :(

Princess
I need you
Why won't you answer
Princess
I miss you
Come home
I should never have left while things were a mess
I shoulda been the bigger one, the bigger man
But I was a coward and ditched my fam
Drugs
*****
Money
Seem to take a higher priority
Maybe I was blind
Maybe I was dumb
But I didn't/don't see
When I looked in the mirror I knew
I didn't know me
So how I could know you?
How could you love me?
Why did I love you?
Is this were it was suppose to go
Who knows I guess we'll never know
Princess
Where have you been ?