I spent a long time telling myself that things are okay
I spent a long time telling myself that things will be different when i get home
I spent a long time telling myself that i would never go back
I spent a long time telling myself that i need to be back where i was
Ive spent so long telling myself things that i cant remember what was fact and what is simply how i got through that bad day
Ive lost all sense that reality will set in again