I did nothing
I said nothing
They were laughing
You were watching
The less I loved myself
The more I faced the taunts towards myself
My dejection,
Became your entertainment
My cries,
Made you to smile
I hate myself for liking you
I loathe myself more for telling you
My cards were slapped on my face
The fragile flowers I gave you, made you feel disgraced
Breaking the heart of a peasant is no big deal for you, even I know that
What did those flowers every did to you, I never understood that
I returned home, feeling detached from my own emotions
Didn't actually felt bad for my heart or the things you said and did
But felt bad for destroying those beauty
Everyone and everything in your life teaches you something..
This was my lesson to learn
From you
I don't know why I never loved myself,
Maybe because my eyes are too dark or my hair too short
Maybe my cheeks are too puffy
Maybe my skin is too dark
Maybe because I'm too loud and weird, for everyone around
Maybe I'm too boyish Or too frank,
Maybe it's my thinking that let it be later it'll be all right
Maybe it's my patience that makes me think that you'll change one day
But those flowers,
What was wrong with them?
They were simply beautiful,
Yes, I agree, some petals on the flowers were not equal to each other
Every petal was different from the other,
Some flowers were in perfect shape and some where beautiful in colour
Look closely,
Every petal is formed within the flowers with each other,
Each flowers are born from the very ground beneath us,
Their veins connected to each other
Some were different from eachother but all were the same
Maybe it's same with humans also,
Everyone is literally the same thing,
But a little difference made us completely different from eachother,
Why should I not love myself?
I can scream louder than anyone,
My slangs, stand out from everyone around
Anyone who knows me, realises I have arrived due to my nest like hair
Everyone I know is honest with me and honestly I like it that way
So why don't I love myself?
The more I found the positive things about myself, the more I started to love myself
You and your friends were trying to make fun of me,
For saying my heart's desire
I made fun of myself in front of you, and said, everyone does stupid things once in a while
Your friend said, you're a tomboy, you're way to boyish
You should wear skirt and keep your hair long
I said, I do know that and I like it that way
Skirts and long hair is not my thing, probably it'll suit you
You said that I've changed
I said, Really, how so?
The bell rung, I went to class,
Now when I actually think about it,
I never got an answer from you!
But frankly I don't care,
We all are flowers born from the ground beneath us,
We may look different, but we've got the same veins connecting us to each other
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Violet Calla Lilly
I walked by in the dark
Dizzying scent
We are but simply flowers
- Jack Gordan