Lost - Hello Poetry

Lost May 2014

Words Aren't Enough But I Can't Hold It In Anymore

i'm such an idiot
i chased around,
trying to catch the brightest star
when i already had the world in my palms

if i could measure the amount of how sorry i feel,
even the boundaries of space wouldn't be enough
i regret being so blind
that i couldn't see my fingers in front of me

i don't deserve you
but if you choose to give me one more chance,
i wouldn't waste it
you are the only thing that matters right now,
and i don't want to lose the main reason why i'm trying everyday to get better

if you ever find someone who makes you feel giddy inside but in a good way don't let them go if you ever find someone who's timid in their actions never doubt them if you ever find someone who's straightforward but refuses to tell you about their problems never push them if you ever find someone and you feel like they don't give a **** about you then think again and never doubt their feelings for you

Lost May 2014

More Than Words

i've watched the way the sun kisses the earth,
early in the morning.
i've seen the way waves embrace
the shoreline like an old forgotten lover.
i've witnessed how words,
could break a person.
i've experienced the way,
the light went out from your eyes
and i've understood the real meaning
of what it feels like
to be hollow.

Lost Apr 2014

When The Stars Align

I fell in love with a boy
whose smile outshined the stars in the night sky

I fell in love with a boy
who couldn't stop laughing
with the crinkles by his eyes
making him look older than he is

I fell in love with a boy
who had dreams
big ones too,
and the world was his oasis

I fell in love with a boy
who could make the saddest story
have a happy ending

I fell in love with a boy
and how lucky I feel
to have loved than never loved at all.

Apr 2014

Evelynn Hohenbrink

Cracks

I walk along these cracked streets
Taking in every crevice, every patch
And cannot help but admire
its character throughout time.

By night, the rain fills in the openings between the asphalt
By day, the sun rises and the water fades away,
And I cannot help but understand
that this cracked street and I have a lot in common
as I look inward and consider
all of the cracks
in my own being.

Some nights, the tears flow, mingling betwixt the cracks
in my heart and soul
flowing without direction.
Most days, the sun rises
and by that point everything within has dried.
There's no real point in fixing me,
because like the road that I walk upon,
there are simply too many cracks for people to pave.

It's not a particularly bad thing,
I've just accepted it and continued on.
After all,
I admire this old street for its character,
and so too must others do for me.

Apr 2014

eunsung aka Silas

a letter to my younger self

Hello me,

I'm you. I'm the older you after multiple suicide attempts, and lost in a haze of ***** and drugs. I am also you who sought and searched for some meaning and belonging, only to find hypocrisy and pain. But all that aside, I wanted to thank you for not giving up on life even though you wanted to. Finally asking for help when you did, even though a part of you didn't care anymore. Thank you for letting hope grow in you one day at a time. Thank you for letting me love you, so I can love me today. Life is pretty amazing today, and we would have missed out on this beautiful journey because we were so locked in our pain. Now, you and I can share our story of pain and suffering to help someone else. We don't have to stay in a hopeless state of mind and body. Thank you for having the courage to surrender and admit you couldn't do it alone anymore. I love you very much.

Love,

I'm You

This is a reminder to myself that I am not alone, and a love letter to myself , to my friends, and strangers yet to be friends who are struggling with depression and suicidal thoughts.

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