he gave me a look that set
a fire in my heart.
he turned the lights off,
and my heart raced faster.
closer
and
closer he scooted,
but did nothing.
why didnt he kiss me?

"I wish I was in love but I don't want to cause any pain."

If this feeling flows both ways?

Kissing you was like swallowing
the salty, salty sea:

I have corals for ribs,
and seaweed limbs;
my bones are ship-wreck saves
and wishful pennies.

My heart is a sea-shell:
if you put your ear to it,
you’ll hear me screaming, shouting,
pining
for you.

I shouldn't stay awake but
I can't fall asleep but
I'm scared to be alone but
I'm scared to be with anyone else but
maybe I'm scared to be myself but
maybe I'm scared to let someone love me but
maybe I love myself enough already but
maybe God loves me enough for all of us but
maybe I just want to be alone but
maybe I don't know how.

And you started trailing
leaving me behind

and I am known for failing
so I knew the cue to cry

my dad taught me to never go half way
well I tried to love you fully

but the thing about loving fully
is that sometimes if things are tough

you get washed up

buried alive in the debris of love

“If you ever need to sit by a fire, I’ll be the warmth flying about.”

k.m