Step into my shoes.
Feel the things I feel everyday.
Feel every broken thought rushing
Through your head.
Listening to all the nagging voices
That never stay still silent.
Then you will know how it feels
To be in my shoes.

I am tired being the cinderella
Without the Prince.
Never being the one watching
Everyone being happy.
The one closest to me just see
Me as the one, just see me
At the one who keeps everything working.
Why can't I have my happy ending?.
Why can't I have light shine on me?.

How do you stop the rain from falling
And hearts from breaking?.
How many frogs do you have to kiss
Before you find the Prince.

Step into my heart and you
Will see all the things,
That you don't see

The closest ones to me never see the
Talented the poet.
They just see the woman with
With a broken mind,
The woman who has no talent,
In their eyes.
They don't say keep writing,
No words of encouragement.
I am not a talented poet,
Just a woman with a broken mind,
Who writes.

Take the mask off when your
Talking to me.
Let me see the real you
Flaws and all.
Show me the you that no one knows.

I opened up to you I showed
You my beautiful scars.
All you did was add another one

Does it really matter if you are
An Instagram poet?.
If a poem makes someone smile
Or touches someone, isn't
That a good thing?.

Yes I'm a dreamer who has been
Lost in many dreams.
But sometimes it is best to be lost
In a dream than have nothing.

My mind is so full of scrumbled
Thoughts and mixed emotions,
That I can't explain.
I am not happy or sad I am
Not up or down.
I just feel so mixed up today

Everytime I find the light
You turn it out and,
The pain all starts again.

I am trying hard to fight
The darkness inside.
Because I can't keep feeling like this
Anymore it's killing me.

I remember the first times and all
The beautiful times,
Every emotion felt every tear cried.
The smile on my lips the butterflies
In my stomach.
Its not the first moment that hurts
Its the last moment that hurt.

Does goodbye mean letting go?
Does letting go mean forever?.
Because either way a heart breaks.

I saw the face of my bully sitting
In the street cup in hand,
Arms full of needles marks begging
For spare change.
Karma gets everyone in the end.

I haven't done much healing
Looking in the mirror,
I don't know the person who is
Looking back at me.

I am trying to write the pain
Away that keeps me awake.
I just want to sleep.

We fall in love,
Only to learn how to
Let go.

The danger with some dreams is they
Keep you holding on to the one thing,
That you can never really have.

They told me i could have anything
That nothing was out of my reach.
But the one thing I want is the one
Thing that I can't have.

I have been lied to let down
Stabbed in the back.
Talked about laughed at.
Judged by others.
Yet no one ever says it to my face.

Be careful of the lies you tell
The lines you cross, and the
Wishes you make.

I would have kissed you harder
And held you tighter.
If I Knew this was the last goodbye.

Love not hate.
Be happy don't worry.
Enjoy the moment.
Don't be scared to dream.

The most dangerous thing to do
Is stand still and never try.

You are the dream I am
Always chasing.

What is beautiful?.
Is it a supermodel?.
Is it someone who is thin?.

Can a big girl be beautiful to?.
Aren't all body shape beautiful?.
Will the mirror ever love me?.

Does the mirror only love beautiful
People?.
The fat jokes don't hurt anymore I have heard them all.

The thick skin helps with that.
I have red all the books and they don't have the answer.

Is beauty even real.
Because I don't think it is.
It's not me thats ugly.

It's society that is the ugly one.
Beautiful normal and perfect are
Made up words.

Beauty comes in all shapes and sizes.

It always sounds the same
I'll stop tomorrow.
But tomorrow never seems to come.

Watching as heads are buried in
The sand.
Telling yourself it will change.

I have grown tired of the lies and
The never ending excuses.
This problem will never change.

You can't help someone who doesnt
Want to help themself.
The ice is getting thinner and thinner.

You have choose this life.
You have made your bed and now
You can lay in it.

Its hard when you say
Something and everyone else
Hears something different.

We are too busy.
Complaining.
Ranting.
Pointing fingers.
Judging people.
Acting selfish.
Being fake.
Wondering why life is so hard
Never trying anything.
Your looking answers.
But your finding nothing.
You are not clueless.
Your just not listening
To yourself.

The songs brown sugar red wine
And don't worry be happy.
Always me smile I remember how much
You didn't like they songs.

I will always love you think twice and
When will I see you again always
Made you cry.

There's been so many songs over the years
Almost to many to name.
But one song always stands out.

Alan Jackson's remember when
Has become the song that make me cry.

The dreamers dream and
The poet writes.
Lost souls looking for some kind of
Purpose in life.
While some of us are just trying to get
Through the day

I don't think of you often
But when I do.
My heart break all over again
And a poem is born.

I want to trust.
But I can't.

I want believe.
But I don't.

I want the truth.
But I am scared of it.

I want to love.
But I don't know how.

Can't talk to much.
Can't laugh to loud.
Can't have fun.
Can't do anything.
Tell me what I can do?.

I am not enough
I know that.
So instead of keeping me
Let me go.
It hurts to be halved loved.

How do you move on from
The hurt and pain?.
Act like nothing has happened.

Forget the cruel words that can
Never be taken back.
When they still ring in your ears.

Moving on isn't so easy.
Because some things can never be
Forgot.

Saying sorry doesn't change anything.
It doesn't take the pain away.
It's easy to say sorry and never mean it.

I have tried to move on.
Knowing that nothing can be the same.
The trust is broken.

There's no way back from this.
I can't unsee what my eyes have seen.
I see the real you now.

The mask you wear can never hide
What I see now.
You can't see the damage you cause.

You call it support when it is
Really control.
I want to fly you want to bring me down.

You've hurt me too much.
You have went too far this time.
I don't need you now or ever.

Does the dream die when
The the Dreamer dies?.
Can a broken heart love again?.
Are we really free?.

Broken hearts can be Mended.
Broke s life's can be rebuilt
Piece by piece.
Broken wings can be Mended and
They will take flight again.

It's scary what a smile can hide.
You can fake a smile.
But you can't fake your feelings.

I am not sure what to think or
Feel anymore.
Everyone keeps talking like
I am not in the room.
Hiding the pain holding back
The tears.

While they say.
It's just an act.
She needs to snap out of it.
She needs to get up and
Get on with it.
She needs a push.

I wish I was normal.
I wish I didn't feel like this.
I wish that I wasn't so
Broken.

I wish I wasn't the embarrassment
They see me as.
I wish the suffering in my head
Would stop.
I wish they knew how feels to
Be broken.

None wants to be broken.
None choose to be depressed.
It's feelings you have no control over.

I choose to be alone.
Burying my pain in lines of poems.
Crying where I can't be seen.

depression.
Is not an act you can stop.
It's not a feeling you can control.
It's a life long battle.

To me.
I am broken and trying hard to
Be happy and get through
The day.

To everyone else.
It just an act I am nothing more
Than an attention seeker.

When night falls that's when the worrying thoughts starts.
I am good enough?.
I am trying so hard to open to up
But none listens to me.

I am trying really hard to be normal.
I am trying to man up as they keep
Telling me to do.
Fighting the darkness in my own head.

Waking up to the tired questions.
Whats wrong with you?.
Your too loud.
Your too quite.
Why don't you come round anymore.

Your not smiling enough.
Your not talking enough.
Your not laughing enough.
You not doing it right.

You need to speak up more.
You need to listen.
Your just being selfish now.
Do this so I feel happy.

I am more broken than they think.
Night falls and fear takes over.
My chest tights.
My hearts starts to beat fast.

I am depressed because the ones who are meant to help me.
Are the ones who are hurting me the
Most.

I watched her mind break and her heart shatter.
A woman who always smiled.
Who did everything brought up seven kids alone.
Who beating everyday.
Her smile was always there no matter what.
So warm so kind so gentle.
Her heart was full of love for everyone.
Nothing was ever to much too ask her.
As the years came and gone things changed.
Her body become weak.
Her home become a prison without bars.
Illness took everything from her.
Her only dream was to live by the sea.
A dream she never got.