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I HATE missing someone, it's just one of saddest thing in this world..

Because the ONLY thing that could make it go away is when you're finally with that person.

But what if you can't be with them anymore?

How do u survive this missing?
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I have a memory of this specific place.
A memory that's not even mine.

I wish you didn't tell me what happened here.
I can no longer be in this place without thinking of what occured
That time when you were so in loved with her.

I love this place so much, but being here just breaks heart.

Dearest you..

Sometimes I still cry for you.. just like today, out of the blue.
Should I be happy that you gave me something to look back to.. or be sad that there's nothing to look forward to..

My body still yearns for u..
In ways I dont understand..

I yearn for how when u touch me feels like it's burning my skin, but the more it hurts, the more that I wanted it.
For when every kiss felt different than what we just had.
Each hugs feels warm and cold at the same time.

I miss you, and it's killing me.

I felt beautiful..
For once,
For the first time in a long while
I felt beautiful
And it was amazing..

It's been a week when he decided to surprise me with his goodbye...
It was 7 in the morning.. I didn't expect to wake up feeling lost.. not able to utter a word.

He asked me to just find someone else like I'm someone who he can just give to anyone..

The reason for ending the relationship was because he will be moving far... and he said that is the only way he sees to save us both from the hurt that the distance would cause.. he said if he happens to cameback next year and we're still both single we might get back together..

He doesn't want me to wait.. but I'm more than willing to wait for him... idk until how long I can wait, but I'm more than willing..

GOD I WANT HIM BACK.. I MISS HIS TOUCH, HIS KISSES, THE WAY HE MADE ME FEEL.. I MISS THE PERSON I AM WHEN I'M WITH HIM... I MISS US..  I MISS HIM!!!

Forever can NEVER be long enough for me
To feel like I've had LONG ENOUGH with you.