This is where I learn how to stand
When the lilies have died and I'm holding your hand
We connect through the breeze
Here is when I know you’re hurting
'Cause the soils gotten cold
The warmth under me no longer exist
This is where I learn how to hush
To listen as the forest whispers around us
We transform through the grass
Here is how I know I love you
'Cause the separation has killed us
But you've kept getting stronger
This is where I learn how to speak
When the silence hasn't helped
An communication was key
The air around me you've always breathed
We transcend beyond the grave
Here is how I see
When the redish tips of your hair
Turn grey
The warmth surrounding me no longer exist
This is where I learn how to stand
When the roses have died an you’re in Gods hands...

How to Stand

The walls (pastel blue)
The cupboards (shut)
The cot (empty)
The curtains (drawn)

The toys (unmoving)
The sheets (crisp)
The books (unopened)
The door (unlocked)

Sat alone (in the dark)
A man (two hearts)
Hums a tune (never sung)
To a child (never born)

The house is empty
But the kettle's hot
The walls are bare
But the door's unlocked
The receivers ringing
But the phone's on hold
The lights are on
But the rooms gone cold
The windows are open
But the glass is cracked
The suns still shining
But the sky's gone black
The blood's still pooling on the bathroom floor
'Cause what's hiding there
Isn't hiding anymore

You smile, I smile.
You wave, I wave.
I hug, you hug back.
I’ve fallen, but I doubt you have.

I know you might be a little awkward,
But I can work with that.
I know you might be a little anti-social,
But so am I.

I find you adorable,
But do you me?
I make me laugh,
But do I you?

I know it’s odd,
We’ve known each other how long?
Not long in fact,
Not long enough for me to ‘know’ you.

I know you in a daily way,
But I don’t know who you are.
I want to though,
Really I do.

I want to know what makes you tick,
I want to know what makes you YOU.
I want to know your successes,
And I want to know your mistakes.

I want to get to know you,
I want to hang out more.
I want more hugs from you,
I simply want you.

You’re like that lanky worn out teddy,
The one you clutch and feel safe.
The teddy that keeps away the sad thoughts,
The teddy that helps you fall asleep.

I think you’re what I need,
Something safe and sturdy.
I think you’re that wall,
The one I need to lean on.

I may never tell you this,
But at least I told me.
And for now,
I guess I can work with that.

yellow seems to me
like almost sunshine,
but it's a false
warmth.
it's the colour of old bruises
littered on
arms and legs
like painful
little
kisses,
blossoms of pain
that fade and die,
just like everything
else.

Don't ever tell them the truth
They'll load every statement into the chamber
And fire them back through your teeth

Soon  I will be done with the ledger of my adolescence
The sun is still in his puberty, though older than me
The moon is still in her perfection, a blessed queen
I have bejeweled you with the sweat of my love
And have garlanded your beauty with rubies and pearls….
Today you are the ocean of love,
And I the sunny heat of summer.
You came that day, Expecting for your arrival
Sun poured shower of anguish on my amethyst Panjabi
Out of the blue You appeared like an expected spring
In her colorful curcuma domestica costumes.
Your locks  under the veil of spring’s yellow umbrella
Still counting the days, the nights, the ongoing time,
Sometimes my heart in quest of a Time –machine….
We took  the weight off our feet under a Blessed tree
I touched your hand joining my two palms
The cold current of  spring was soaring  there
My ill-fated heart could not Kiss your "Petals of Blood"
I drowned, I drowned in my own made ocean……..