I want everyone to be happy,
but I want myself to be happy as well.
I flirt with every girl I see,
but I never used to be this way.
Me, I was a very shy guy but stupid
people and kids in my generation
******* up my mind.
I do all my work,
get good grades in school.
But, a stupid kid in my generation
Showed me a inappropriate video
that I had no recollection of.
When I saw it everything changed.
I sometimes watch it,
just to feel better about myself.
But I regret watching every second of it.
AND ALSO, the stupid saying of "That's What She said".
"That's what she said" is not supposed to mean anything nasty.
Its just means what that person said, THATS ALL.
But, this mind set is not gonna ruin the way I think.
I not thinking wrong really anymore but I'm getting better.
So people say I talk a lot, when really I don't.
Theirs really nothing about me to talk about.
I'm a simple person who has no care in the world.
But the only thing I wish is that I
have a girlfriend who's just like me.
Only found two girls like me or where cool and awesome.
First one moved and the second one is in a school far away.
So yea, its really sad.
Today, I flirt with girls, I really don't know why.
I guess I want girls to feel happy about themselves,
cause what I hear when I'm around girls,
theirs always these guys dumping them and they start crying.
I know I shouldn't but I have to say something
to them so they can feel better and/or just brighten their day for the better.
The girls think I love every girl I see because
I flirt with every girl but ITS A LIE.
Me, they look at me and see me always happy and cheerful, when really I'm hurting so much in my heart.
To ignore the pain I'm feeling,
I call myself Master Chief from HALO 4,
see Master Chief,
he's a Spartan in the UNSC and has a AI called Cortana and she helps him on missions.
The thing that keeps him alive is Luck.
Master Chief feels no pain and has no feelings,
So I call myself Master Chief Because I don't feel pain when somebody hits me and I almost have no feelings for no one but I still have feelings for people.
This is how I get away from the pain and now I'm always alone.
This is the live of a Spartan and now I call myself Master Chief.
No one can break the chain around my heart.
If a girl can, that would be the day I love again and would be my bride.
-Sign LINK THE HERO OF TIME-
Sorry if it sounds so sad, I just had to say the truth and I couldn't keep it hidden inside of me anymore.
Please don't feel down nor sad.