i do not think i failed to see the end come,
i merely feared it.
and yet
i still write about it -
the way a prophet writes voraciously about the inevitable,
never living it out. and now,
the paper feels more bitter than gourd,
the pen sharper than knife,
my thoughts pinching at my brain.
i feel hopelessly ambivalent,
distraughtly confused,
achingly wistful.

there's no words for your
absence; an unfeeling ache
that traps me sorry.

am i too flawed to love,
or are you just unable to love me?

i do not know what to think.
it used to be a lack of breathing that came with a lack of feeling
just as night succeeds day
just as the thunder precedes lightning.
now, i just write -
thinking this act of releasing could relieve all the pain.
but it can't.

for a prophet never feels the pain of his people until they live out his spoken truth;
so my brain never feels the pain of the heart
*until it has been broken.

today was a good day because even though you cried you survived and that deserves an award -
today was a good day because nothing makes sense but it doesn’t matter
today was a good day because everything ***** but still you smiled
today was a good day because you laughed because everything is beautiful and
today was a good day because nothing is determined and our minds make up lots of things which aren’t true but then again our minds wander
today was a good day because it is nice to say that it was a good day- and even if it was a bad day it doesn’t matter
today was a good day and even though people **** themselves and our country is now involved with killing innocent people in the middle-east, there is still beauty left on this earth;
today was a good day because we, the human race can love
and we cry and we love and we fight and we hate, way too much but we love and loving is forgiving and loving is kissing and laughter
and love is everything
love cures and love understands and you can love yourself so that you’ll never have to experience a loveless day - again. self love is important
today was a good day because no matter how many land mines erupted, good things happened and
today people got married and today a couple decided to split up but to remain friends - which will never work but it will make them both happier
and today a girl decided she would never love again but then again she will fall in love
at this very moment a boy decided he doesn’t want to get married, he wants to love as many people as possible and that is beautiful
today a girl had the guts to tell her best friend that she is in love with her - or has been in love with her, since the day they met
today a woman of old age decided to leave her husband because he kept beating her up
we are taking baby steps and as sarah kay said
‚this world is made out of sugar ; it can crumble so easily, but don’t be afraid to stick out your tongue and taste it’
you are a work of art and i can hear you thinking ‚i’m very normal and i am not that beautiful’ but believe me once you start thinking of yourself as beautiful from the inside and the outside
life will be so much better