Don’t rejoice too soon.

i wanted to describe
to You my death,
but it was all in vain.
our terror could no longer be contained.
what did it matter,
our minds numb with indifference,
i listened as the voice rose,
powerful yet broken

amid the weeps,
the sobs,
the sighing,
pausing,
as though the strength
to uncover the melody
was stifled in his throat.

what did it matter,
the night was growing longer, never-ending,
no need of sick,
no need,
no need of me,

i’m getting weak,
my strength is gone,
i won’t make it.

don’t give in,
You must resist,
don’t lose Your faith,

today is little paradise,
You at least have pity on me.
the sighing of the entire congregation,
“all earth and universe are God’s!”

Ignore my requests
instead of tempting my heart
with your happiness.

From whence do you derive your power,
you mysterious luminary?
You impede my thoughts
leave me gasping for your attention
affection
lust.
I'm too far gone
to resist your touch.
Your selfishness owns me.
Your devious smile beckons,
and though I turn towards the door.
I can't go.
Love.

Quiero amarte
¿Por qué?
¿POR QUÉ?
¿por qué.....?
Haces mi vida muy difícil
y estoy loco
mientras sientas y ríe
a mi tontería.
Quiero quererte
Queiro amarte
pero no puedo.

How is it that every time I'm finally at peace
whether I'm sitting in my room
or alone at the beach
when all that's on my mind is nothing
and my heart beats slowly
You
You enter my mind
It's like you know that I'm...I'm...
(well there's nothing else to describe it)
Happy
And you know what that makes me?
**MAD

I thought we were perfect
It was more like having a best friend
I saw you every day
Our conversations had no end
But lately when I smile
You turn away
I just don't get the feeling we're okay
I don't want to be selfish
But I have to know that you still want me
We used to laugh for hours
Other times you'd bring me flowers
We were just two kids
Slowly falling in love
When you kissed me I felt power
Full of joy and happiness
I know we fought be I never wished for all of this

ive held back the tears for so long
i didnt cry when he quit

or when my dreams were crushed
year after year after year

i didn't wail when i ached
or when i let myself down

i didnt ask for pity
or have others mend my mistakes

i just put on a different face and
made it through one more day

i worked hard without thank yous
and did as i was told

so when is it my time
to finally show my feelings

to be held
when i weep

to tell someone
whats going wrong

how it changed all of me
and why i didnt stop it

is it ever mine?