I wish it was simple. That these feelings would disappear.
But each time I see your face the feelings reappear.
I wonder how you did it, managed to erase me like that.
Please teach me how, I need to forget you.
My heart beats non faster than it did when I'd see you.
Shows that I still care even when you're not here.
I thought losing you was my greatest fear.
But I guess admitting it has to be my worst.
Your smile used to put me in sanity.
But now its causing me insanity.
I miss you so much it hurts.
I miss everything about you, including your perks.
Do you miss me? Do you care or am I just another memory.
To you like the subject I favour I must be History.
But then you don't want to learn more, I'm no mystery.
I see you out there smiling away in search of new discoveries.
You don't see me here, crying the pain away learning to recover.
I see you out there, laughing with your new friends exploring.
And Here I am... Thinking of you.
I'm fighting these emotions, blocking each and every one of them out.
But I can't anymore I've run out of ammunition.
I guess all I can do is watch you head on to a new destination.
I guess that's all I can do.

Her heart conflicted in pain
All her thoughts are suddenly in vain.
Popped up on drugs injections in her vein.
Getting high as ****.
She needs more distractions life's tough.
Waking up with a hangover.
Mum lost hope in her. Its over.
She needs more distractions.
Cuts herself and gets high on pain.
Looking at this world with disgust.
It used to be beautiful.
Dear God forgive her.
She can't shed tears anymore.
She doesn't have fears anymore. Not since her death.
She needs to forget this. She needs a distraction.
Play around with people's thoughts and emotions. She's finally mastered the laws of attraction.
Its not enough she needs more.
Time for her to get high and wasted.
Time for her to lose control and get faded.

Mission aborted.
Vision distorted.
Faith restored. As I leave it all up to God.
I put my life on pause.
I'm doing it for a good cause... And also for my selfish reasons.
Days pass.
Weeks pass.
Months pass.
Seasons pass.
I don't know whats happening but I get it.
You found love and you want to explore it with him I get it.
I'm not the clingy type so Imma leave you two alone.
Leave you two to explore love and just get along.
As your bestie I'm asking for you to be safe.
Remember he's a guy. Her craves.
Mission aborted.
Vision distorted.
Dreams shattered.
She's battered.
I told her to be safe cos her safety mattered.
Knocks once, Knocks twice. I open the door.
Her eyes... Red.
Her cheeks... Hot pink
Deep breath... Okay Shosho think.
Shosho look down.
Shosho look at her tummy.
Shosho look now.
Oh snap your bestie is a mummy!

Heavy Heavy Heavy.
Breathe kid, take it steady.
Don't rush the pain, you're not ready.

"It hurts like hell though,
It consumes my breathing and kills my thinking.
It called out my demons."

Heavy Heavy Heavy
Breathe kid, take it steady.
Be strong, **** it in, become a lady.
Don't let it consume you...
Not now.

" I can't bear but let it destroy me.
My mind departed.
My thoughts are separated.
I can't help but burn.
I'm tormented, brought down by myself."

Heavy Heavy Heavy.
Breathe kid, take it steady.

Tangible forces.
Inevitable feels.
Hear the story.
Of a great legend.
Of our dear friend.
Robert Wild.

He went into a dream, a comatose of his dreams.
He met a woman, her name unknown.
But he met her still. Their eyes locked.
His mind popped.
His Heart stopped.
He realised he was caught.

She looked to him and saw a smile.
She smirked and but her lower lip,
His eyes wide open, his heart skipped.
His mind went ballistic as his lips dipped.
She stopped and winked, finally moved closer to whisper.
Her voice deeper, her breath warm.
Her touch soft.
He tensed up and opened his mouth.
He was shocked, she just smirked.
Until she...

Boom.
Tangible forces.
Inevitable feels.
Unfortunately our Robert Wild.
Woke up.

Life and its definitions.
Life and its superstitions.
Our lies and our faults.
Stuck in a vault of time.
Wondering when's the right time to die. I don't know maybe.
All I know is its going to happen.
Pain. I live for that.
Happiness I'd die for that.
But its all an act and that's a fact but I'll try to stay intact.
Dreams of broken butterflies hurt myself and hope to die.
Only these four walls can hear my pain they understand.
They hear the sorrows of a lost child who's lost hope.
A child who can't live with this anymore. I can no longer cope.
The pleasures of giving up, the pleasures of death runs through my veins.
They ask if I'm alright but what use is my response if its in vain.
Breathless... lost... I can't compete... I retreat.

I've created a barrier of lies.
I thought they'd comfort me or at least put me in sane.
I guess I was wrong. Again you could say.
I hurt the heart and tempered with the mind.
Perhaps... Just maybe I thought wrong about things.
Just maybe I'd messed myself.
I've created a barrier... And I see no green light.