Tragic beauty you are
Such calm once my spirit intertwines with your mind
But just like a venom you are toxic
Those lies slowly killing what heart I have left
Wishing I could forget the first taste
Although proving to be my last
Sick game of love.

I hate I gave you air
suffocate..
paralyzing
the day will come when you will pay for the wrongs
the reflection of yourself now turns its back to you
has nothing to say
how does it feel

phone rings
text buzzes
flashing lights from notifications
too late
why bother now
what was once will never be again
just another nameless faceless memory
past and present blurred lines
there is no longer a distinguishing difference
just passing strangers on timelines...

I ran away from sunshine
Into the abyss of darkness
Dances alone in solitude
Drank the bitterness of heartache
Somber tears flow down mascara stained cheeks
How do the insane survive?
For this to me has been normal all along.

He was my muse.
I took him into myself.
Became him.
Felt him
Knew him
While I was him
He was draining me
Killing spiritually my reason for being.
Forgot who I was in pursuit of building...him
And then dust settles...He became I.
And I was no more.

Instead of love and needing
You used and wanted
Flaunted your lustful conquests
Distastefully like a sick game
Just another name on the page
I know the feeling of being trapped without a cage
Prisoner of love
My crime confusing love and lust
Left in disgust
My punishment life sentence of emotional emptiness
I'll drink to that... Again.

Up then down
Sad happy tears of the clown
Laughing at my expense
Hence the stares of ridicule
Judgement sympathy
*** does anyone love me
Like me
Notice me
Hear me
I hear you I hear me
The voices louder this time
No reason or rhyme
Can help me escape
This corner this maze
In a daze but moving fast
How much longer does this thing last
Losing my grip
Even reality is fantasy these days
Starstruck in the dark skies of my eternal despair
Lost faith in living but no one cares
Just be the beautiful tragedy they want you to be
Entertainment on that stage
I'm a bird trapped in a cage
Longing to fly but I have no wings
I see songs in my head but I have no voice to sing them
Dear god where is the lithium?....