Help it's such a hard thing to ask for

You try to act tough

But you know inside you feel like dying

And trying so hard to cover up your crying

You long for someone to listen to your pain

But no is around to hold you tight

So you lay alone night wishing for a better day

When all the pain will just wash away

And you can finally smile once again

Goodbye, Goodnight I shall go away tonight

I'm sorry love but this is for the best

I take these pills and knife

As I take my own life

I pretend a happiness I don't feel

Faking smiles and laughter

Just to please those around me

So goodbye, goodnight

As I slowly die tonight

These tears don't fall

Only crimson blood from my arms

I'm not mad at you or the world, just myself

Everything is distorted

I can't tell right from wrong

What's good or bad

So I do what I please

And hurt everyone around me

I want to end it all

But who would care?

I guess it really doesn't matter

These tears don't fall

They just crash on the floor

In the darkened room where I lay miserable

Hatred for everything around me

So I take some pills and cut my skin

As I make another sin

And try to forget what made this way

I close my eyes and go to sleep

Will I wake again?

No one really knows

I told you I loved you

You said it too

Only difference

I was telling the truth

While you lied

It kills me inside

Too see your face all the time

Happy and smiling

While i'm slowly dying

I don't want to believe

That I won't see you again

My last sunrise has come today

In the early morning of misty may

Is where I lay

With scars from the previous day

There's a gun in my hand

A hole in my head

And a note on my heart

I apologize for the pain i've caused

But I could bear this burden no more

I freed my self to a better place

Where the sun is always shining

So this is my last sunrise

I feel so numb like nothing can affect me

I feel dead inside

I forget what it's like to be alive

I cause pain on my self to feel alive

I look down my pillow is red

I still feel nothing

I cut a little deeper

I watch the crimson liquid flow out

I make some more cuts

I feel the sadness leaving me

I lay there and close my eyes

I bleed out the pain and sadness

I feel numb no more

I sit here in the dark late at night

Tears running down my face

I grab the razor from my beside drawer

I slash it against my skin

I sit as I watch the blood flow out

I make a few more to release the stress

To forget the pain ever existed

Just for a moment everything is alright

But then the blood stops flowing

And i'm forced to face reality again

The tears come again as well the regret

Another relapse to live with

A few more scars to hide

And a lie to keep living

I'm not strong enough

I need to relapse