Waking up to a floor flying towards my face
To sweat clinging to my cheeks
Tears leaving a thick trace
Fear burning as quick as leaves

My heart pounded in my chest
My fingers ached in writhing pain
My thoughts seemed to become a test
And I feared what I saw could happen again

The darkness was blank
And it helped me relax
As though I slept in a cave
Like death with some hacks

I want to fall in love again,
But only with you.

Your cats don't care if you're crying into their fur
Because tears dry faster than bathwater
Your dogs wouldn't give a crap if you had cuts or burns on your wrists
Because you can still use those hands to play tug of war

Your cats will still walk all over you
And your dogs will still trip you from beneath

Because you are their master, their owner
You take care of them out of the goodness of your heart

I think it to be absurd if your turtle ignores you
Just for the color of your skin
So why should a human do it?

*Did you all forget that we, ourselves, are animals?

If I call you
Will you answer
Whether you're mad at me
Or can't stand it
That's it's my name flashing
Across your screen
That it's my heart chasing yours
After everything

If I draw for you
Will you accept it
You asked me once if I could
Yeah I remember it
I could sing this over and over
Like it's a song
Shout it right in front of you
You wouldn't even respond

Because you don't love me
You don't even like me
Sometimes you see me
Your eyes just start screaming
And I know this is all my fault
But I can't stop trying
Because it hurts to be near you
You make me wanna start crying

Again and again
With that rude glare
I loved you once here
And I'll still love you there
Because that's what I promised
And I never break those
And no amount of threats or yells
Can change that, you know

and as I sit here
close to tears for whatever reason it must be this time
you talk to me like I'm a human being
for the first time in years.
why?