When the sun turn cold,
and oxygen only breathes out,
mamas will cry "my seeds stopped blooming."

-Shahrukh Zamir

My duas folded hands with wishing wells,
wonder if sinner pray their daily 5,
20 years of slaves to my creator,
ironic why am I chained to this life,

Times where broken bills don't carry change,
and money taste like shay-tan,
When clouds grows there horns out,
not enough good deed get rains on,

This  world need to get refurbished,
paid work shifts don't excuse refused worship,
just like when death chuck deuces,
don't mean it mean the peace signs,

Im dead tired with strength alive  
enough to poke holes through a loopholes
I cant allow ourselves to dumb it down,
if we come to  bring truth to the pseudos,

I cant discriminate with y'all
Son of your God, we see as messenger,
You say only god can judge me ,
like you forget judgement day come with hot temperatures?

Do you remember?

You used hide a smile,
that could blind the moon and stars,
With a mind that carried geniuses
yet clueless to think we'd come this far,

Do you remember?

You used to hide inside a cocoon,
afraid to break through that shell,
You finally bloomed through years of trust and care,
and into my arms you fell,

Do you remember?

Holding on to your fears,
afraid no touch would be warm enough to dry away your tears,
And to think a  man like me would disappear ,
did you ever think for once Id still be here.

Do you remember?

My dreams sleep in fortune,
My reality lives in nothing,
Today lies in empty promises,
And Tomorrow's a heavy burden,

Today's grind is heavier than ever.
but slim-fasting away those sunny weathers.

And still......

20/20 eye vision turn impaired, misleading,
My mind breaking through distractions,
Today's world is looking sicker,
and still isn't done sneezing

Love at first sight
have flying fireworks turn spark-less
Saw a virtuous man,
lusting away his heart to the heartless,

The thirst is staying homeless,
so *** is up for charity,
cold women make it so hot,
I might asked her to marry me,

Let the awkwardness subside
watched her eyes bleed deception
how do broken hearts compromise with bad timing,
with her name written all over broken reflection

I even tried to beat the odds,
Eating steaks wont help me walk away from this dice game
I seeing dark scars of mine,
burning into bright pains,

So much sour found,
in this sweet escape with you,
I couldn't swim in a floatie outfit,
but she drowned me into her deep blue

And still...
I choose to play sucker for love,
continuing on my winning spree,
Teeing up the mean,
to something that wasn't meant for me

Them heart-shaped lips,
every part of her frame built-in flawless,
Those paint brushed lashed coloring up portraits,
of us as one,

Our larynx wont hold our tongues
from  singing choruses,
and now my spines chills dying out in rigamortis,
It hard to walk your line
along your modeled looking mind,
when those shimmers are  anti- gorgeous,

And Still..

You bring hell,
for someone looking like heaven,
and life with you is sin,
than I'm counting up my blessings,
but I keep throwing feeling and that catching you wont do
Deceivers make believers
  keep falling for you.

And Still..

Today I lie homeless,
living empty out of cash,
Today I lie hopeless,
thinking of how long will it last,

Today I taste the feeling of those deprived,
Will it make you want to leave
or would you stay and remain
fighting through my plight,

How deep is your love?

Today our meals came from picking in the trash?
We are starving yet filled from all this pressure,
As a couple we lie in trouble
but as for you, is this make you love me lesser?

Today we are  bare sheltered in the cold streets,
will you still be happy and watch up over me,
in which ways will you react?
will you still be here or disappear in a flash,

How deep is your love?

Today I've hit rock bottom
dwelling in the depths of poverty
Today all smiles turned solemn
do my downfalls keep you from loving me?

Living through these trialed times,
in which everything has failed to mold,
will you let every piece of fall apart,
or still have me to hold?

Because honestly as of now,
I've hit the peak of my downfall,
Stumbling, down tumbling,
to crumbling giving it my all,

Aside from you ,
I'm shunned away from world of pleasures,
caught up in the mix
trying to get it things back together,

What if we were in absence,
to these moments of bliss,
would I be dismissed,
or in your eyes still exist?

How deep is your love?..

They went against there word,
misguiding me saying they'd  stay,
I called them in times of need,
they were gone as quick as yesterday,

They told me they were true,
true friends never turn away,
but they never questioned what I was going through,
nor if I was doing okay,

Regardless,I always spoke to them about my problems,
hoping they help or feed me some advice,
They always pretend to concern and listen,
yet little did they care inside,

They never asked about my goals
where I was heading in my career,
I was just there puppeteer,
Im much better off without them here,

They only talked to about about was partying,
money for smokes, ***, and beer,
disillusioned to myself was I
thinking for me that they'd be there,

Today I sit here guilty
to why i wasted by time with them,
messing my life up more,
when I was barely hanging off a stem,


They were supposed to turn me into a better person,
with these blessing came such curse,
They had me thinking I was doing good,
just to find myself doing much more worst,

Today in solitary state I remain,
in search of my true purpose,
looking for those who sustain til end,
not these "friends" who played me worthless.

I'm unaware to where I am headed,
but today is special to me,
After countless steps and years of walking ,
I've finally hit the remainder of what was for my life to see,

I crossed paths with someone
so genuine and sweet ,
who shaded in that missing piece
and made my life complete,

No idea does she have,
of how long it is I've waited ,
to search for the kind of love,
for which cannot be traded.


c)2011