Oh lord all I want is for you to take my soul up high
Release me..
Bury me under the ground
Let me smell the mud
I see no use of this life
I see no purpose of it all
I choose to ignore the minute
I choose to leave the past
I choose to grow younger
I choose to be blind
But then I remember
But then I realize
The mental illness that I'm surrounded by
I deserve to be punished
I deserve to sin
I deserve to **** my soul with every sickness that I have done
They said that each day is a lesson to be told
They said that the older I become the wiser I will be
But my wisdom is fading and I'm disgusted of my own being..
Take my soul up high..
I demand death..
Let flowers grow on my grave..
Let that sinful body shrink underground..
Let that lost soul bloom forever..

i see your soul i swear i see it.

give me some of your desire..

let me **** your mind. play with your head.

I’m ******.

you are messing with my thoughts.

let me hear you screaming. scar my back.

moan more.

i’ll **** harder.

Bite my neck.

pull my hair.

beg me to stop.

and i’ll **** you dry.

until you are barely breathing.

you can’t resist what you desire babe.

I’m going crazy.

come out of your cage.

show me what’s hidden underneath your hypnotic pupils.

She and I
We have weird desires
I like to choke
She likes to bite
I like to bleed
She likes to hit
I crave pain
She seeks my freedom
I'm lost
She's there
To a journey full of sick adventures
I ask for death
She serve it in a golden plate
We do no good for each other
But we ended together

for once,
say i am a snowflake;
fragile and
cold,
awkwardly unique.
but even if i was a snowflake
or not,
i met every time we touch.

Upon the stale wind, her body flails again
I came walking through the field
to learn about compassion
She was blonde and the last heart in town
The moon bathed her from within
What a loveless dream from that tree
touching God's skin.

Her feet above my head, painted in mud and above the sugarcane
And if I didn't love her so, I'd be able to walk from this pain
But I recall her warm breath the last time we kissed
The air tasted of a broken soul that I failed to fix

Blood under her nails, scratching freedom too slow
If she was yelling for my name, then I'd rather not know
It might as well been me who hung her above the stars
I did not give her enough of me and it will haunt me for years

A whole new life we're going to start we said
We start living a new good one at first
Second and third..
But slowly we find ourselves back to who we are
To what we do
And how we think..
And slowly we find ourselves back to the same dark room
Thinking about the same black thoughts
With the same people we said we'll never think about
It's sad, isn't it?
How the same cage can bring us back to it
Put us and lock us again
Spending days and days finding an escape
But all we need is another more few days to get us back to it..

I'm the mixture of wind and acid rain
killing each memory left behind
Breath me in, burn your lungs
I **** your soul, I take you out
Hand rapped on your neck
Choking the fire out
Burn. Burn. Burn.  
Shrinking every beat of your heart
Lips on lips
Tasting the poison of death
Feeling the fear in your breathe
Less than a minute
Your death is near
I'm your Anubis
Your soul is out
I'm your Ammit
I swallowed your heart