Where have you been all of those years?
I've waited and waited..
Never lost hope..
Just lost you
Where have you been?
A smile won't do
A greeting won't cheer
Until I hear the story of you
Where did life take you?
Are you still lost my friend?
Are you still the same?
Cuz my friend I've lost it all
I'm new like a blank paper..
I miss our long nights
I miss our deep thoughts
I remember each word
I remember each day
Do u remember?

I need you to read the braille
of my body
and tell me
what it means to you.

Because the story
I'm trying to write
is just coming out
as perfect
straight
lines,
and how can there be a purpose to that?

Tell me all your secrets,
All your mysteries.
What is going on
Behind your furrowed brows,
Behind your eyes,
Watching me so lovingly?
What are you thinking?

You sprinkle me with kisses.
I taste your sweet tongue.
Our lashes dance together.
Cheek to cheek,
We embrace each other.
We're so close,
But I want to be nearer.

You’ve given me your heart,
But the words written upon it
Are foreign to me.
Read to me
My friend,
My lover,
My hero.
I want to know all of you.

She left and it was hard.
Or maybe I left but it was still hard..
Let's say they left, our bodies.
My soul didn't yet
my soul is still there
There where my heart stayed.
She left,
But happily I can still feel her,
Smell her
And touch what she once touched
I'm wearing that necklace which isn't like others
I'm wearing her necklace that she once wore
Everytime I look at it I see her
A part of her
That I will never take off.
Hugging her favorite doll
I feel her I feel her appearance with hugging it.
I can't wait until I wear her hoodie
I can't wait to feel myself inside her
She left, I left, we left
But not like any other time before
I left without myself, my soul or my heart.
I left with only a self that switched to be her.

She was the last perfect thing I ended my month with
And she was the first perfect thing I started the next with
I'm kind of afraid, afraid that I'll see nothing perfect anymore
Don't blame me,
Don't blame, you never looked into her sparkling eyes, heard her voice or felt her soft hards..
Never felt her indescribable hug, never touched her skin, never taste her eatable lips..
Don't blame me,
How can I like a smell that isn't hers,
How can I enjoy a laugh..
Or stare at someone..
That isn't her,
How can I, how can I like a girl after her.

It's so hard trying to improve myself
when there's voices of
those who told me that I can't.

It's so hard trying to prove
people wrong when their words
are imprinted into my brain.

I only know you, my lover, as the empty space between my arms where you laid that day for eight hours straight. I know you as the bitter cold and sweet dawn of a winter morning, and the pale moon hiding behind the blue of the sky.

You do not fit me; we are two different people, and I love that we choose to be together, regardless. We are color swatches, paint blotches: part of a bigger, more beautiful picture that I can only dream to achieve with your help.

And I think that is love: the fundamentals of kindness, separation, and coexisting.

The loneliest nights keep me up.
It's not hard to do when I've drank a cup
The substance being crazy,
With a dash of hazy,
Sometimes physically lazy,
But never mentally motionless.
I only needed your caress.
And I always do, in and out of distress.
Why won't the sparkles glide off your tongue anymore?
I try to swim to them but I'll never get to shore.
I'm lost at sea, sometimes they're oceans.
Time always travels, but never showing emotion.
I'll make it as I always have done.
Still it doesn't change the fact that you're my only
       Loved.
One.