My dear midnight flower,
You are such a fighter (for good things)...
You're too good to me,
to everyone.
You always have been,
and you deserve more.

You deserve more poetry to be written about you,
you deserve more kisses and hugs,
you deserve less hurt...

But I guess you're "used" to all the **** that's in your life.
I hope one day you'll find your sun,
and you'll be their cherished moon.

You mean a lot to me,
and I hold you dear to my heart...
for you to get hurt,
I will hurt the person whom hurt you with a force over nine-thousand times stronger than what they did to you,
after consoling and tending to you first, of course.

The way you smile,
makes me smile, just knowing that you're happy.
The way you hurt,
it's a blow to the gut,
I couldn't protect you,
and you're hurt...

I'm sorry this poem is all over the place and I couldn't bring you enough justice,
for you're too good to describe in just mere words.
Only actions like
a swift kick to the head,
a hare burrowing into the ground,
and maybe a fisherman releasing his fish,
can describe you.

Or maybe
You're more like a skyscraper,
Literally and figuratively.
I'll always look up to you, senpai.
I will always try to take brilliant pictures of you, to capture the essence of you.
But I'll always fail,
'Cause you're best seen in real life and not in photos.

But no matter what, I'll always be here for you,
The bizarre Hanji sidekick
To your sugoi, very interesting
Levi-heichou.

- Love, your crazy, over-protective and psychotic kohai,
Paul ^^

You're worth more than a poem.
But for now,
I'll try my best to make this much more than just a poem:
but a message from me.

What you don't know is,
every time she feels down, she rereads all your kind words.
When she's bored, you're not on,
she rereads them.
She spends all her time thinking about you.
She cherishes you,
You're the best she ever had.

She takes everything about you,
devours them, slowly savoring all the good bits (which is everything),
and then keeps them tattooed all over me,
never to be removed.
Each and every letter, engrained onto me with a flourish,
a kiss,
trailing her hands behind, stroking the way the gorgeous letters look
all aligned together to make such beautiful sentences.

Her eyes trail every word,
her hands caress the wonder machine that brought her you,
her ears thrumming with the sounds of you,
the music notes floating into her ears,
the way water flows,
for you are better than just any ordinary ocean.

You may call her an ocean,
but you are more than that.
The ocean only takes up 75% of Earth.
You are much more.
You are her sky,
her universe.

You hold the stars in your heart,
twinkling like little rubies.
Just like the moon and the sun,
you see everything.
The clouds are your façade,
and the rain,
your tears.
Beautiful.

And all she wants to be is the satellite,
to explore you and learn everything about you,
to always circle around and around,
to never leave.

I know you won't break me,
or her.
And for that,
I am forever in your debt.
So come to me when you need me,
I will do anything to serve my prince.

With Great Love,
The Creep's Heart

I fangirl (too much) over
-cute guys (my god them hormones though >~<) (and mainly kiyuki cx)
-awesome anime/manga
-kawaii fluff
-books
-most stuff XD

Before I met you,
I didn't know it was possible to fall this hard.
I was broken,
Rebuilding my walls,
Hiding myself away like hidden treasure,
So that no one would find me
And hurt me.

But then you came.

Despite all my hiding,
My head poked out from behind the walls,
And that was enough for me to fall for you,
Hard.

And today, today is your birthday.
To be honest, you deserve much much more,
Something real to hold,
Something physically there.
But well, I can't exactly fly to SA right now,
And I don't have your address to ship you or mail you a letter or gift...
So I guess I'll settle with attempting to describe how much you mean to me
And how simply amazing you are.

You've been there for me always,
Cared for me despite whatever state you're in.
For that I thank you.
Just knowing you've had a good day,
That you are smiling...
It takes me to Shangri-la.
You are my one joy,
The most important thing in the world to me.
I don't care what anyone says,
What my demons whisper in my ears at night,
Reminding me that you are too good for me,
That you are more than an ocean away...
All I know is that I love you and I love you.
I accept the fact that I might get hurt,
I've let myself crawl out from behind the walls, to stop hiding.
I've stripped down my soul and heart,
Left it bare for you to see.

You are incredible in your own right,
The soothing voice that melts away all my worries,
Your kind words,
Your face... those lips that I just want to kiss...
Your texts.
Ah yes, your texts...
I look forward to them everyday,
That sense of you seeping into every word you send me...
And I love you.

:) so I hope you have a simply splendid birthday, in which you are happy and get to enjoy and celebrate the past year and anticipate the new year ^.^ finally 17! Woohoo! :D You are freaking amazing, enchanting, enrapturing, ensnaring even. You make me happy and just the thought of you makes me smile, the sound of your name makes my heart skip a beat... waiting for you physically hurts, everything reminds me of you, and I just want to meet you... <3 thank you for putting up with my neediness and insanity, even when I ***** up. Thank you for caring, for just being there for me always. Je t'aime avec tout mon cœur.

Sorry I **** at this, gifts, poems and whatnot... ^^" but yea, here goes nothing... :3

I made a scavenger hunt thing for you.... :$ the links should lead to different things for your birthday, hope some make you smile? Lol, but uh I can't put links in here, it won't let me save them, so uh ill send them to you by email and by kik, okay? ^^"
(Listen to "spaceman" by the killers and "teenagers" by my chemical romance when you do this and read this ^^)

Marly. Just Melz. Kiyuki Ishida. Unwanted. Sye. Ally. Just a few of the people that have helped me, both in the beginning and recently. Who helped me when I had no place to turn to and no hope. Who gave me numbers to call for help and support lines when I needed them. People I am forever grateful to.

Kiyuki Ishida.

I want you to be the only one I can think off
when I talk to boys,
when I am with another guy,
when I see pictures of guys,
when I read cute love poems
and see cute love posts.

You told me you'd hold out for me. I guess I was holding on to an empty lie. You told me you love only me. I believed you. I trusted you.
You said I could use this one day. I did today. And it broke my heart. I love you. I love you still. You are the only one I love. But you lied to me. It shatters me. I love you so much it hurts. You used to say the same.
I love you Pauline. I'm sorry I'm not enough. I told you from the beginning. I'm a failure. I am nothing. You are the only one to ever call me cute. Even that was a lie.
Change your password now. I'm sorry.
~Kiyuki.

**lies? You don't know how much I love you, do u? I'm sorry I don't express it enough... thanks for trusting me.
I'm sorry... but the poem... I do think about you when I talk to guy friends and see pics of other guys... and all that. I didn't explicitly say I did or did not, but I do think of u....I still do. I used to and still do. Though its different now... I keep my mouth shut and don't talk about u as much as I used to... the people in my school... unforgiving.
I used to say the same and I still say the same. Because its true.
I love you Kiyuki.
You're more than enough, too good for me... so don't say that ever again. You are my everything.
You are cute.
Nothing was a lie.
I'm not changing it. Passwords matter to me, and you matter to me. So ill keep it like that, thanks.
-Pauline.