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How To Use Cayenne Pepper To Stop A Heart Attack Fast!

Famed healers such as Dr. John Christopher, N.D., and Dr. Richard Schulze, N.D., sang the praises of Cayenne pepper. For instance Dr. John Christopher declared: "In 35 years of practice, and working with the people and teaching, I have never on house calls lost one heart attack patient and the reason is, whenever I go in--if they are still breathing--I pour down them a cup of cayenne tea (a teaspoon of cayenne in a cup of hot water, and within minutes they are up and around)."

It should be noted that these men, and many other healers like them, were speaking from personal experience and not speculation when referring to this powerful plant.

So what are the best practices in using Cayenne pepper based upon the voice and experiences of those that have actually used it?

First the Cayenne pepper must be at least 90,000 heat units or 90,000 (H.U.) to be able to stop a heart attack. If the cayenne is at least 90,000 H.U. and the person is still conscious, the recommendation is to mix 1 teaspoon of cayenne powder in a glass of warm water (this is essentially a "cayenne tea"), and give it to the person to drink.

If the person is unconscious then the recommendation is to use a cayenne tincture or extract, again of at least 90,000 H.U., and put a couple of full droppers underneath their tongue full strength. As noted above by Dr. Christopher, in 35 years of practice he never lost even 1 heart attack case if the person was still breathing when he arrived, and he attributed this to the prudent use of the cayenne pepper.
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How To Use Cayenne Pepper To Stop A Heart Attack Fast!

Famed healers such as Dr. John Christopher, N.D., and Dr. Richard Schulze, N.D., sang the praises of Cayenne pepper. For instance Dr. John Christopher declared: "In 35 years of practice, and working with the people and teaching, I have never on house calls lost one heart attack patient and the reason is, whenever I go in--if they are still breathing--I pour down them a cup of cayenne tea (a teaspoon of cayenne in a cup of hot water, and within minutes they are up and around)."

It should be noted that these men, and many other healers like them, were speaking from personal experience and not speculation when referring to this powerful plant.

So what are the best practices in using Cayenne pepper based upon the voice and experiences of those that have actually used it?

First the Cayenne pepper must be at least 90,000 heat units or 90,000 (H.U.) to be able to stop a heart attack. If the cayenne is at least 90,000 H.U. and the person is still conscious, the recommendation is to mix 1 teaspoon of cayenne powder in a glass of warm water (this is essentially a "cayenne tea"), and give it to the person to drink.

If the person is unconscious then the recommendation is to use a cayenne tincture or extract, again of at least 90,000 H.U., and put a couple of full droppers underneath their tongue full strength. As noted above by Dr. Christopher, in 35 years of practice he never lost even 1 heart attack case if the person was still breathing when he arrived, and he attributed this to the prudent use of the cayenne pepper.
Famed healers such as Dr. John Christopher, N.D., and Dr. Richard Schulze, N.D., sang the praises of Cayenne pepper. For instance Dr. John Christopher declared: "In 35 years of practice, and working with the people and teaching, I have never on house calls lost one heart attack patient and the reason is, whenever I go in--if they are still breathing--I pour down them a cup of cayenne tea (a teaspoon of cayenne in a cup of hot water, and within minutes they are up and around)."

It should be noted that these men, and many other healers like them, were speaking from personal experience and not speculation when referring to this powerful plant.

So what are the best practices in using Cayenne pepper based upon the voice and experiences of those that have actually used it

First the Cayenne pepper must be at least 90,000 heat units or 90,000 (H.U.) to be able to stop a heart attack. If the cayenne is at least 90,000 H.U. and the person is still conscious, the recommendation is to mix 1 teaspoon of cayenne powder in a glass of warm water (this is essentially a "cayenne tea"), and give it to the person to drink.

If the person is unconscious then the recommendation is to use a cayenne tincture or extract, again of at least 90,000 H.U., and put a couple of full droppers underneath their tongue full strength. As noted above by Dr. Christopher, in 35 years of practice he never lost even 1 heart attack case if the person was still breathing when he arrived, and he attributed this to the prudent use of the cayenne pepper.ļ»æ
I went to a presentation last week, the topic, ā€œWe Are Losing Our Young Men.ā€

The speaker talked about how boys these days are growing up without the thirst for first place, they're becoming complacent with second, that they're now crying in baseball. That men today are just not what they used to be.

I almost raised my hand, almost asked about today's young women, where they are, what type of state are they in, how do they compare to my mother's generation, hell even his motherā€™s generation.

I almost raised my hand, but didn't, I realized I didnā€™t care what he had to say. I got caught up in a film-reel of Disney classics and Mother Goose picture books read over a soundtrack of, ā€œWhat do you want to be when you grow up? What do you want to be when you grown up?ā€ stuck skipping.

I thought about the first things we teach young girls, what they dream about before going to bed, the role models we give them. We tell them they can all be princesses and to dream of fairy godmothers. We give them Cinderella, tell them there's no hardship a rich husband can't solve. We give them Belle-Beast relationships, and we fail to mention that if a man is an animal, do not kiss him harder or love him longer, you leave and donā€™t go back no matter how much he says heā€™s changed. We show them Snow White, teach them men will only love them for their beauty, teach them women will hate them for it. We give them Ariel, encourage them to give up their passions and talents and family to the first guy that promises them love. We give them Prince Charming rescues, kisses that awake them from eternal sleep. We do not tell them when they should become wary of slick mouths with a penchant for vulnerable women. I guess they're meant to figure it out on their own.
And we wonder why society is obsessed with the Kardashians.

The film reel stopped. I wanted to raise my hand then, wanted to give this pompous speaker my own two cents and tell him Iā€™m not totally buying this whole ā€œearnest, honest, father like figureā€ who wants us to ā€œseize our potentialā€ act. His talk has been aimed at the fraternity men that paid him to be here.
Heā€™s smart.
I want to raise my hand and address my fellow ā€œmodern women,ā€ but when I turned there were only six females in attendance. So thatā€™s why the joke about his wife got such a poor response.

Had they been there I would have stood on my chair and told them this- One day weā€™ll be mothers, raising little girls of our own. Throw away your fairy tales and grab yourself a cookbook. Sit down at the edge of the bed and open to the dog-eared page. Tell them, ā€œyes, you are made of sugar and all things nice, but you have this inside of you,ā€ and point her to the bay leaves. Tell her how she has traveled from Russia to India to France. Give her black mustard, perfume made with caraway. Teach her the history of chicory, its medicine, its bitterness. Give her licorice. Give her tarragon. Show the vanilla that runs through her veins, the lavender. Teach her wasabi and her ability to make men weak from her strength. Paint her lips red in celebration of cayenne. Make her a *** of puttanesca, have her taste the oregano, the parsley. Tell her about the recipe for the rub of a pork shoulder thatā€™s been guarded for generations. The black pepper, the white pepper, the cumin. Celebrate her complexity, the bitterness paired with sweet, the anise and marjarom, the cayenne, who cannot help but cry at the overpoweringness of cayenne. Show her the history of nutmeg, her trek through the Sudan, Egypt, Italy. Give her the religions she spread, the languages she introduced to India. Show her the slaves that worked for her discovery, the passages she created. Give her the empires she built, the ones she flattened.

Tear down the castles and open the spice drawer.
Paint her lips cayenne.
Meena Menon Sep 2021
Flicker Shimmer Glow

The brightest star can shine even with thick black velvet draped over it.Ā Ā 
Quartz, lime and salt crystals formed a glass ball.
The dark womb held me, warm and soft.Ā Ā 
My mom called my cries when I was born the most sorrowful sound she had ever heard.Ā Ā 
She said sheā€™d never heard a baby make a sound like that.Ā Ā Ā Ā 
Iā€™d open my eyes in low light until the worldā€™s light healed rather than hurt.Ā Ā 
The summer before eighth grade, July 1992,
I watched a shooting star burn by at 100,000 miles per hour as I stood on the balconyĀ Ā 
while my family celebrated my birthday inside.Ā Ā 
It made it into the earthā€™s atmosphere
but it didnā€™t look like it was coming down;
I know it didnā€™t hit the ground but it burned something in the time it was here.Ā Ā 
The glass ball of my life cracked inside.Ā Ā 
Light reflected off the salt crystal cracks.Ā Ā 
I saw the beauty of the light within.Ā Ā 
Nacre from my shell kept those cracks from getting worse,
a wild pearl as defense mechanism.Ā Ā 
In 2001, I quit my job after they melted and poured tar all over my life.Ā Ā 
All summer literature class bathtubs filled with rose hip oil cleaned the tar.Ā Ā 
That fall logic and epistemology classes spewed black ink all over my philosophy
written over ten years then.Ā Ā 
Tar turned to asphalt when I met someone from my old job for a drink in November
and it paved a road for my life that went to the hospital I was in that December
where it sealed the roof on my life
when I was almost murdered there
and in February after meeting her for another drink.Ā Ā 
They lit a fire at the top of the glacier and pushed the burning pile of black coal off the edge,
burnt red, looking like flames falling into the valley.Ā Ā 
While that blazed the side of the cliff something lit an incandescent light.Ā Ā 
The electricity from the metal lightbulb ***** went through wires and heated the filament between until it glowed.Ā Ā 
I began putting more work into emotional balance from things I learned at AA meetings.Ā Ā 
In Spring 2003, the damage that the doctors at the hospital in 2001 had done
made it harder for light to reflect from the cracks in the glass ball.
Iā€™d been eating healthy and trying to get regular exercises since 1994
but in Spring 2003 I began swimming for an hour every morning .Ā Ā 
The water washed the pollution from the burning coals off
And then I escaped in July.Ā Ā 
I moved to London to study English Language and Linguistics.Ā Ā 
I wouldā€™ve studied English Language and Literature.Ā Ā 
I did well until Spring 2004 when I thought I was being stalked.Ā Ā 
I thought I was manic.Ā Ā 
I thought I was being stalked.Ā Ā 
I went home and didnā€™t go back for my exams after spring holiday.Ā Ā 
Because I felt traumatized and couldnā€™t write poetry anymore,
I used black ink to write my notes for my book on trauma and the Russian Revolution.
I started teaching myself German.Ā Ā 
I stayed healthy.Ā Ā 
In 2005, my parents went to visit my momā€™s family in Malaysia for two weeks.
I thought I was being stalked.Ā Ā 
I knew I wasnā€™t manic.Ā Ā 
I thought I was being stalked.Ā Ā 
I told my parents when they came home.Ā Ā 
They thought I was manic.Ā Ā 
I showed them the shoe prints in the snow of different sizes from the woods to the windows.Ā Ā 
They thought I was manic.Ā Ā 
I was outside of my comfort zone.Ā Ā 
I moved to California. I found light.Ā Ā 
I made light,
the light reflected off the salt crystals I used to heal the violence inflicted on me from then on.Ā Ā 
The light turned the traffic lights to not just green from red
but amber and blue.Ā Ā 
The light turned the car signals left and right.Ā Ā 
The light reflected off of salt crystals, light emitting diodes,
electrical energy turned directly to light,
electroluminescence.Ā Ā 
The electrical currents flowed through,
illuminating.Ā Ā 
Alone in the world, I moved to California in July 2005
but in AugustĀ Ā I called the person I escaped in 2003,
the sulfur and nitrogen that I hated.Ā Ā 
He didnā€™t think I was manic but I never said anything.
I never told him why I asked him to move out to California.Ā Ā 
When his coal seemed like only pollution,
I asked him to leave.Ā Ā 
He threatened me.Ā Ā 
I called the authorities.Ā Ā 
They left me there.
He laughed.Ā Ā 
Then the violence came.Ā Ā 
****:Ā Ā stabbed and punched, my ****** bruised, purple and swollen.Ā Ā 
The light barely reflected from the glass ball wIth cracks through all the acid rain, smoke and haze.
It would take me half an hour to get my body to do what my mind told it to after.Ā Ā 
My dad told me my mom had her cancer removed.
The next day, the coal said if I wanted him to leave heā€™d leave.Ā Ā 
I booked his ticket.
I drove him to the airport.Ā Ā 
Black clouds gushed the night before for the first time in months,
the sky clear after the rain.Ā Ā 
He was gone and I was free,
melted glass, heated up and pouredā€”
looked like fire,
looked like the Snow Moon in February
with Mercury in the morning sky.Ā Ā 
I worked through ****.Ā Ā 
I worked to overcome trauma.Ā Ā 
Electricity between touch and love caused acid rain, smoke, haze, and mercury
to light the discharge lamps, streetlights and parking lot lights.
Then I changed the direction of the light waves.Ā Ā 
Like lead glass breaks up the light,
lead from the coal, cleaned and replaced by potassium,
glass cut clearly, refracting the light,
electrolytes,
electrical signals lit through my body,
thick black velvet drapes gone.Ā Ā 





















Lava

I think that someone wrote into some palm leaf a manuscript, a gift, a contract.Ā Ā 
After my parents wedding, while they were still in India,
they found out that my dadā€™s father and my momā€™s grandfather worked for kings administering temples and collecting money for their king from the farmers that worked the rice paddies each king owned.Ā Ā They both left their homes before they left for college.Ā Ā 
My dad, a son of a brahminā€™s son,
grew up in his grandmotherā€™s house.Ā Ā 
His mother was not a Brahmin.Ā Ā 
My mother grew up in Malaysia where she saw the children from the rubber plantation
when she walked to school.Ā Ā 
She doesnā€™t say what caste she is.Ā Ā 
He went to his fatherā€™s house, then college.Ā Ā 
He worked, then went to England, then Canada.Ā Ā 
She went to India then Canada.Ā Ā 
They moved to the United States around Christmas 1978
with my brother while she was pregnant with me.Ā Ā 
My father signed a contract with my mother.Ā Ā 
My parents took ashes and formed rock,
the residue left in brass pots in India,
the rocks, so hot, they turned back to lava miles away before turning back to ash again,
then back to rock,
the lava from a super volcano,
the ash purple and red.Ā Ā 


















Circles on a Moss Covered Volcano

The eruption beatifies the magma.Ā Ā 
It becomes obsidian,
only breaks with a fracture,
smooth circles where it breaks.Ā Ā 

My mom was born on the grass
on a lawn
in a moss covered canyon at the top of a volcanic island.Ā Ā 
My grandfather lived in Malaysia before the Japanese occupied.Ā Ā 
When the volcano erupted,
the lava dried at the ocean into black sand.Ā Ā 
The British allied with the Communist Party of Malaysiaā€”
after they organized.Ā Ā 
After the Americans defeated the Japanese at Pearl Harbor,
the British took over Malaysia again.Ā Ā 
They kept different groups apart claiming they were helping them.Ā Ā 
The black sand had smooth pebbles and sharp rocks.Ā Ā 
Ethnic Malay farmers lived in Kampongs, villages.Ā Ā 
Indians lived on plantations.Ā Ā 
The Chinese lived in towns and urban areas.Ā Ā 
Ethnic Malays wanted independence.
In 1946, after strikes, demonstrations, and boycotts
the British agreed to work with them.Ā Ā 
The predominantly Chinese Communist Party of Malaysia went underground,
guerrilla warfare against the British,
claiming their fight was for independence.Ā Ā 
For the British, that emergency required vast powers
of arrest, detention without trial and deportation to defeat terrorism.Ā Ā 
The Emergency became less unpopular as the terrorism became worse.Ā Ā 
The British were the iron that brought oxygen through my momā€™s body.Ā Ā 
She loved riding on her fatherā€™s motorcycle with him
by the plantations,
through the Kampongs
and to the city, half an hour away.Ā Ā 
The British left Malaysia independent in 1957
with Malaysian nationalists holding most state and federal government offices.Ā Ā 
As the black sand stretches towards the ocean,
it becomes big stones of dried lava, flat and smooth.Ā Ā 

My mom thought her father and her uncle were subservient to the British.Ā Ā 
She thought all things, all people were equal.Ā Ā 
When her father died when she was 16, 1965,
they moved to India,
my mother,
a foreigner in India, though sheā€™s Indian.Ā Ā 
She loved rock and roll and mini skirts
and didnā€™t speak the local language.Ā Ā 
On the dried black lava,
it can be hard to know the molten lava flickers underneath there.Ā Ā 
Before the Korean War,
though Britain and the United States wanted
an aggressive resolution
condemning North Korea,
they were happy
that India supported a draft resolution
condemning North Korea
for breach of the peace.Ā Ā 
During the Korean War,
India, supported by Third World and other Commonwealth nations,
opposed United Statesā€™ proposals.
They were able to change the U.S. resolution
to include the proposals they wanted
and helped end the war.Ā Ā 
China wanted the respect of Third World nations
and saw the United States as imperialist.Ā Ā 
China thought India was a threat to the Third World
by taking aid from the United States and the Soviets.Ā Ā 
Pakistan could help with that and a seat at the United Nations.Ā Ā 
China wanted Taiwanā€™s seat at the UN.
My mother went to live with her uncle,
a communist negotiator for a corporation,
in India.Ā Ā 
A poet,
he threw parties and invited other artists, musicians and writers.Ā Ā 
I have the same brown hyperpigmentation at my joints that he had.Ā Ā 
During the day, only the steam from the hot lava can be seen.Ā Ā 
In 1965, Pakistani forces went into Jammu and Kashmir with Chinaā€™s support.Ā Ā 
China threatened India after India sent its troops in.Ā Ā 
Then they threatened again before sending their troops to the Indian border.Ā Ā 
The United States stopped aid to Pakistan and India.
Pakistan agreed to the UN ceasefire agreement.Ā Ā 
Pakistan helped China get a seat at the UN
and tried to keep the west from escalating in Vietnam.Ā Ā 
The smoldering sound of the lava sizzles underneath the dried lava.Ā Ā 
When West Pakistan refused to allow East Pakistan independence,
violence between Bengalis and Biharis developed into upheaval.Ā Ā 
Bengalis moved to India
and India went into East Pakistan.Ā Ā 
Pakistan surrendered in December 1971.Ā Ā 
East Pakistan became independent Bangladesh

The warm light of the melted lava radiates underneath but burns.Ā Ā 
In 1974, India tested the Smiling Buddha,
a nuclear bomb.Ā Ā 
After Indira Gandhiā€™s conviction for election fraud in 1973,
Marxist Professor Narayan called for total revolution
and students protested all over India.Ā Ā 
With food shortages, inflation and regional disputes
like Sikh separatists training in Pakistan for an independent Punjab,
peasants and laborers joined the protests.Ā Ā 
Railway strikes stopped the economy.Ā Ā 
In 1975, Indira Gandhi, the Iron Lady,
declared an Emergency,
imprisoning political opponents, restricting freedoms and restricting the press,
claiming threats to national security
because the war with Pakistan had just ended.Ā Ā 
The federal government took over Keralaā€™s communist dominated government and others.Ā Ā 

My mom couldā€™ve been a dandelion, but sheā€™s more like thistle.Ā Ā 
She has the center that dries and flutters in the wind,
beautiful and silky,
spiny and prickly,
but still fluffy, downy,
A daisy.
They say thistle saved Scotland from the Norse.Ā Ā 
Magma from the volcano explodes
and the streams of magma fly into the air.Ā Ā 
In the late 60s,
the civil rights movement rose
against the state in Northern Ireland
for depriving Catholics
of influence and opportunity.
The Northern Irish police,
Protestant and unionist, anti-catholic,
responded violently to the protests and it got worse.Ā Ā 
In 1969, the British placed Arthur Young,
who had worked at the Federation of Malaya
at the time of their Emergency
at the head of the British military in Northern Ireland.
The British military took control over the police,
a counter insurgency rather than a police force,
crowd control, house searches, interrogation, and street patrols,
use of force against suspects and uncooperative citizens.Ā Ā 
Political crimes were tolerated by Protestants but not Catholics.Ā Ā 
The lava burns the rock off the edge of the volcano.Ā Ā 

On January 30, 1972, ****** Sunday,Ā Ā 
British Army policing killed 13 unarmed protesters
fighting for their rights over their neighborhood,
protesting the internment of suspected nationalists.
That led to protests across Ireland.Ā Ā 
When banana leaves are warmed,
oil from the banana leaves flavors the food.Ā Ā 
My dad flew from Canada to India in February 1972.Ā Ā 
On February 4, my dad met my mom.Ā Ā 
On February 11, 1972,
my dad married my mom.Ā Ā 
They went to Canada,
a quartz singing bowl and a wooden mallet wrapped in suede.Ā Ā 
The rock goes down with the lava, breaking through the rocks as it goes down.Ā Ā 
In March 1972, the British government took over
because they considered the Royal Ulster Police and the Ulster Special Constabulary
to be causing most of the violence.Ā Ā 
The lava blocks and reroutes streams,
melts snow and ice,
flooding.Ā Ā 
Days later, thereā€™s still smoke, red.Ā Ā 
My mom could wear the clothes she liked
without being judged
with my dad in Canada.Ā Ā 
She didnā€™t like asking my dad for money.
My dad, the copper helping my mother use that iron,
wanted her to go to college and finish her bachelors degree.
She got a job.Ā Ā 
In 1976, the police took over again in Northern Ireland
but they were a paramilitary forceā€”
armored SUVs, bullet proof jackets, combat ready
with the largest computerized surveillance system in the UK,
high powered weapons,
trained in counter insurgency.Ā Ā 
Many people were murdered by the police
and few were held accountable.Ā Ā 
Most of the murdered people were not involved in violence or crime.Ā Ā 
People were arrested under special emergency powers
for interrogation and intelligence gathering.Ā Ā 
People tried were tried in non-jury courts.Ā Ā 
My mom learned Malayalam in India
but didnā€™t speak well until living with my dad.Ā Ā 
She also learned to cook after getting married.Ā Ā 
Her mother sent her recipes; my dad cooked for herā€”
turmeric, cumin, coriander, cayenne and green chiles.Ā Ā 
Having lived in different countries,
my momā€™s food was exposed to many cultures,
Chinese and French.
Ground rock, minerals and glass
covered the ground
from the ash plume.Ā Ā 
She liked working.Ā Ā 

A volcano erupted for 192 years,
an ice age,
disordered ices, deformed under pressure
and ordered ice crystals, brittle in the ice core records.Ā Ā 
My mother liked working.Ā Ā 
Though Khomeini was in exile by the 1970s in Iran,
more people, working and poor,
turned to him and the ****-i-Ulama for help.
My mom didnā€™t want kids though my dad did.
She agreed and in 1978 my brother was born.
Iran modernized but agriculture and industry changed so quickly.Ā Ā 
In January 1978, students protestedā€”
censorship, surveillance, harassment, illegal detention and torture.Ā Ā 
Young people and the unemployed joined.Ā Ā 
My parents moved to the United States in December 1978.Ā Ā 
The regime used a lot of violence against the protesters,
and in September 1978 declared martial law in Iran.Ā Ā 
Troops were shooting demonstrators.
In January 1979, the Shah and his family fled.Ā Ā 
On February 11, 1979, my parentsā€™ anniversary,
the Iranian army declared neutrality.Ā Ā 
I was born in July 1979.
The chromium in emeralds and rubies colors them.
My brother was born in May and I was born in July.

Obsidianā€”
iron, copper and chromiumā€”
isnā€™t a gas
but it isnā€™t a crystal;
itā€™s between the two,
the ordered crystal and the disordered gas.Ā Ā 
They made swords out of obsidian.Ā Ā 





Warm Light Shatters

The eruption beatifies the magma.Ā Ā 
It becomes obsidian,
only breaks with a fracture,
smooth circles where it breaks.Ā Ā 

My dad was born on a large flat rock on the edge of the top
of a hill,
Molasses, sweet and dark, the potent flavor dominates,
His father, the son of a Brahmin,
His mother from a lower caste.
His fatherā€™s family wouldnā€™t touch him,
He grew up in his motherā€™s motherā€™s house on a farm.Ā Ā 
I have the same brown hyperpigmentation spot on my right hand that he has.

In 1901, Dā€™Arcy bought a 60 year concession for oil exploration In Iran.
The Iranian government extended it for another 32 years in 1933.
At that time oil was Iranā€™s ā€œmain source of income.ā€
In 1917ā€™s Balfour Declaration, the British government proclaimed that they favored a national home for the Jews in Palestine and their ā€œbest endeavors to facilitate the achievementā€ of that.

The British police were in charge of policing in the mandate of Palestine.Ā Ā A lot of the policemen they hired were people who had served in the British army before, during the Irish War for Independence.Ā Ā 
The army tried to stop how violent the police were, police used torture and brutality, some that had been used during the Irish War for Independence, like having prisoners tied to armored cars and locomotives and razing the homes of people in prison or people they thought were related to people thought to be rebels.
The police hired Arab police and Jewish police for lower level policing,
Making local people part of the management.
ā€œLet Arab police beat up Arabs and Jewish police beat up Jews.ā€

The lava blocks and reroutes streams, melts snow and ice, flooding.
In 1922, there were 83,000 Jews, 71,000 Christians, and 589,000 Muslims.
The League If Nations endorsed the British Mandate.
During an emergency, in the 1930s, British regulations allowed collective punishment, punishing villages for incidents.
Local officers in riots often deserted and also shared intelligence with their own people.
The police often stole, destroyed property, tortured and killed people.Ā Ā 
Arab revolts sapped the police power over Palestinians by 1939.

My fatherā€™s mother was from a matrilineal family.
My dad remembers tall men lining up on pay day to respectfully wait for her, 5 feet tall.Ā Ā 
She married again after her husband died.
A manager from a tile factory,
He spoke English so he supervised finances and correspondence.
My dad, a sunflower, loved her: she scared all the workers but exuded warmth to the people she loved.

Obsidian shields people from negative energy.
David Cargill founded the Burmah Oil Co. in 1886.
If there were problems with oil exploration in Burma and Indian government licenses, Persian oil would protect the company.Ā Ā 
In July 1906, many European oil companies, BP, Royal Dutch Shell and others, allied to protect against the American oil company, Standard Oil.
Dā€™Arcy needed money because ā€œPersian oil took three times as long to come on stream as anticipated.ā€
Burmah Oil Co. began the Anglo-Persian Oil Co. as a subsidiary.
Ninety-seven percent of British Petroleum was owned by Burmah Oil Co.
By 1914, the British government owned 51% of the Anglo-Persian Oil Co.Ā Ā 
Anglo-Persian acquired independence from Burmah Oil and Royal Dutch Shell with two million pounds from the British government.

The lava burns the rock off the edge of the volcano.
In 1942, after the Japanese took Burma,
the British destroyed their refineries before leaving.
The United Nations had to find other sources of oil.
In 1943, Japan built the Burma-Thailand Railroad with forced labor from the Malay peninsula who were mostly from the rubber plantations.

The rock goes down with the lava, breaking through the rocks as it goes down.
In 1945. Japan destroyed their refineries before leaving Burma.
Cargill, Watson and Whigham were on the Burmah Oil Co. Board and then the Anglo Iranian Oil Co. Board.Ā Ā 

In 1936 Palestine, boycotts, work stoppages, and violence against British police officials and soldiers compelled the government to appoint an investigatory commission.Ā Ā 
Leaders of Egypt, Trans Jordan, Syria and Iraq helped end the work stoppages.
The British government had the Peel Commission read letters, memoranda, and petitions and speak with British officials, Jews and Arabs.Ā Ā 
The Commission didnā€™t believe that Arabs and Jews could live together in a single Jewish state.
Because of administrative and financial difficulties the Colonial Secretary stated that to split Palestine into Arab and Jewish states was impracticable.Ā Ā 
The Commission recommended transitioning 250,000 Arabs and 1500 Jews with British control over their oil pipeline, their naval base and Jerusalem.Ā Ā 
The League of Nations approved.
ā€œIt will not remove the grievance nor prevent the recurrence,ā€ Lord Peel stated after.
The Arab uprising was much more militant after Peel.Ā Ā Thousands of Arabs were wounded, ten thousand were detained.Ā Ā 
In Sykes-Picot and the Husain McMahon agreements, the British promised the Arabs an independent state but they did not keep that promise.Ā Ā 
Representatives from the Arab states rejected the Peel recommendations.
United Nations General Assembly Resolution181 partitioned Palestine into Arab and Jewish states with an international regime for the city of Jerusalem backed by the United States and the Soviet Union.Ā Ā 

The Israeli Yishuv had strong military and intelligence organization ā€”-Ā Ā 
the British recognized that their interest was with the Arabs and abstained from the vote.Ā Ā 
In 1948, Israel declared the establishment of its state.Ā Ā 
Ground rock, minerals, and gas covered the ground from the ash plume.
The Palestinian police force was disbanded and the British gave officers the option of serving in Malaya.

Though Truman, Eisenhower and Kennedy supported snd tried to get Israel to offer the Arabs concessions, it wasnā€™t a major priority and didnā€™t always approve of Israelā€™s plans.
Arabs that had supported the British to end Turkish rule stopped supporting the West.Ā Ā 
Many Palestinians joined left wing groups and violent third world movements.Ā Ā 
Seventy-eight percent of the territory of former Palestine was under Israelā€™s control.Ā Ā 

My dad left for college in 1957 and lived in an apartment above the United States Information services office.
Because he graduated at the top of his class, he was given a job with the public works department of the government on the electricity board.Ā Ā 
ā€œOnce in, youā€™ll never leave.ā€
When he wanted a job where he could do real work, his father was upset.
He broke the chains with bells for vespers.
He got a job in Calcutta at Kusum Products and left the government, though it was prestigious to work there.
In the chemical engineering division, one of the projects he worked on was to design a *** distillery, bells controlled by hammers, hammers controlled by a keyboard.
His boss worked in the United Kingdom for. 20 years before the company he worked at, part of Power Gas Corporation, asked him to open a branch in Calcutta.
He opened the branch and convinced an Industrialist to open a company doing the same work with him.Ā Ā The branch he opened closed after that.Ā Ā 
My dad applied for labor certification to work abroad and was selected.Ā Ā 
His boss wrote a reference letter for my him to the company he left in the UK.Ā Ā My dad sent it telling the company when he was leaving for the UK.Ā Ā 
The day he left for London, he got the letter they sent in the mail telling him to take the train to Sheffield the next day and someone from the firm would meet him at the station.Ā Ā 
His dad didnā€™t know he left, he didnā€™t tell him.
He broke the chains with chimes for schisms.


Anglo-Persian Oil became Anglo-Iranian Oil in 1935.
The British government used oil and Anglo-Persian oil to fight communism, have a stronger relationship with the United States and make the United Kingdom more powerful.Ā Ā 
The National Secularists, the Tudeh, and the Communists wanted to nationalize Iranā€™s oil and mobilized the Iranian people.
The British feared nationalization in Iran would incite political parties like the Secular Nationalists all over the world.Ā Ā 
In 1947, the Iranian government passed the Single Article Law that ā€œ[increased] investment In welfare benefits, health, housing, education, and implementation of Iranianization through substitution of foreignersā€ at Anglo-Iranian Oil Co.
ā€œAnglo-Iranian Oil Company made more profit in 1950 than it paid to the Iranian government in royalties over the previous half century.ā€
The Anglo-Iranian Oil Company tried to negotiate a new concession and claimed theyā€™d hire more Iranian people into jobs held by British and people from other nationalities at the company.
Their hospitals had segregated wards.Ā Ā 
On May 1, 1951, the Iranian government passed a bill that nationalized Anglo- Iranian Oil Co.ā€™s holdings.Ā Ā 
During the day, only the steam from the hot lava can be seen.
In August 1953, the Iranian people elected Mossadegh from the Secular Nationalist Party as prime minister.
The British government with the CIA overthrew Mossadegh using the Iranian military after inducing protests and violent demonstrations.Ā Ā 
Anglo-Iranian Oil changed its name to British Petroleum in 1954.
Iranians believe that America destroyed Iranā€™s ā€œlast chance for democracyā€ and blamed America for Iranā€™s autocracy, its human rights abuses, and secret police.

The smoldering sound of the lava sizzles underneath the dried lava.Ā Ā 
In 1946, Executive Yuan wanted control over 4 groups of Islands in the South China Sea to have a stronger presence there:Ā Ā the Paracels, the Spratlys, Macclesfield Bank, and the Pratas.
The French forces in the South China Sea would have been stronger than the Chinese Navy then.
French Naval forces were in the Gulf of Tonkin, U.S. forces were in the Taiwan Strait, the British were in Hong Kong, and the Portuguese were in Macao.
In the 1950s, British snd U.S. oil companies thought there might be oil in the Spratlys.Ā Ā 
By 1957, French presence in the South China Sea was hardly there.Ā Ā 

When the volcano erupted, the lava dried at the ocean into black sand.
By 1954, the Tudeh Partyā€™s communist movement andĀ Ā intelligence organization had been destroyed.Ā Ā 
Because of the Shah and his governmentā€™s westernization policies and disrespectful treatment of the Ulama, Iranians began identifying with the Ulama and Khomeini rather than their government.Ā Ā 
Those people joined with secular movements to overthrow the Shah.Ā Ā 

In 1966, Ne Win seized power from U Nu in Burma.
ā€œSoldiers ruled Burma as soldiers.ā€
Ne Win thought that western political
Institutions ā€œencouraged divisions.ā€
Minority groups found foreign support for their separatist goals.
The Karens and the Mons supported U Nu in Bangkok.Ā Ā 


Rare copper, a heavy metal, no alloys,
a rock in groundwater,
conducts electricity and heat.
In 1965, my Dadā€™s cousin met him at Heathrow, gave him a coat and Ā£10 and brought him to a bed and breakfast across from Charing Cross Station where heā€™d get the train to Sheffield the next morning.
He took the train and someone met him at the train station.Ā Ā 
At the interview they asked him to design a grandry girder, the main weight bearing steel girder as a test.
Iron in the inner and outer core of the earth,
Heā€™d designed many of those.Ā Ā 
He was hired and lived at the YMCA for 2 1/2 years.Ā Ā 
He took his motherā€™s family name, Menon, instead of his fatherā€™s, Varma.
In 1967, he left for Canada and interviewed at Bechtel before getting hired at Seagrams.Ā Ā 
Iron enables blood to carry oxygen.
His boss recommended him for Dale Carnegieā€™s leadership training classes and my dad joined the National Instrument Society and became President.
He designed a still In Jamaica,
Ordered all the parts, nuts and bolts,
Had all the parts shipped to Jamaica and made sure they got there.
His boss supervised the construction, installation and commission in Jamaica.
Quartz, heat and fade resistant, though he was an engineer and did the work of an engineer, my dad only had the title, technician so my dadā€™s boss thought he wasnā€™t getting paid enough but couldnā€™t get his boss to offer more than an extra $100/week or the title of engineer; he told my dad he thought he should leave.
In 1969, he got a job at Celanese, which made rayon.
He quit Celanese to work at McGill University and they allowed him to take classes to earn his MBA while working.Ā Ā 

The United States and Israelā€™s alliance was strong by 1967.
United Nations Security Council Resolution 242 at the end of the Third Arab Israeli War didnā€™t mention the Palestinians but mentioned the refugee problem.
After 1967, the Palestinians werenā€™t often mentioned and when mentioned only as terrorists.Ā Ā 
Palestiniansā€™ faith in the ā€œAmerican sponsored peace processā€ diminished, they felt the world community ignored and neglected them also.
Groups like MAN that stopped expecting anything from Arab regimes began hijacking airplanes.
By 1972, the Palestine Liberation Organization had enough international support to get by the United Statesā€™ veto in the United Nations Security Council and Arab League recognition as representative of the Palestinian people.
The Palestinians knew the United States stated its support, as the British had, but they werenā€™t able to accomplish anything.Ā Ā 
The force Israel exerted in Johnsonā€™s United States policy delivered no equilibrium for the Palestinians.Ā Ā 

In 1969, all political parties submitted to the BSPP, Burma Socialist Programme Party.
Ne Win nationalized banks and oil and deprived minorities of opportunities.
Ne Win became U Nu Win, civilian leader of Burma in 1972 and stopped the active role that U Nu defined for Burma internationally
He put military people in power even when they didnā€™t have experience which triggered ā€œmaldistribution of goods and chronic shortages.ā€Ā Ā 
Resources were located in areas where separatist minorities had control.

The British presence in the South China Sea ended in 1968.Ā Ā 
The United States left Vietnam in 1974 and China went into the Western Paracels.
The U.S. didnā€™t intervene and Vietnam took the Spratlys.
China wanted to claim the continental shelf In the central part of the South China Sea and needed the Spratlys.
The United States mostly disregarded the Ulama In Iran and bewildered the Iranian people by not supporting their revolution.

Obsidianā€”
iron, copper and chromiumā€”
isnā€™t a gas
but it isnā€™t a crystal;
itā€™s between the two,
the ordered crystal and the disordered gas.Ā Ā 
They made swords out of obsidian.


Edelweiss

I laid out in my backyard in my bikini.Ā Ā 
I love the feeling of my body in the sun.Ā Ā 
Iā€™d be dark from the end of spring until winter.
The snow froze my bare feet through winter ,
my skin pale.
American towns in 1984,
Free, below glaciers the sunlight melted the snow,
a sea of green and the edelweiss on the edge of theĀ Ā limestone,
frosted but still strong.Ā Ā Ā Ā 
When the spring warmed the grass,
the grass warmed my feet.Ā 
The whole field looked cold and white from the glacier but in the meadow,
the bright yellow centers of those flowers float free in the center of the white petals.
The bright yellow center of those edelweiss scared the people my parents ran to America from India to get away from.Ā Ā 
On a sidewalk in Queens, New York in 1991, the men stared and yelled comments at me in short shorts and a fitted top in the summer.Ā Ā 
I grabbed my dadā€™s arm.

























The Bread and Coconut Butter of Aparigraha

Twelve year old flowerhead,
Marigold, yarrow and nettle,
Iā€™d be all emotion
If not for all my work
From the time I was a teenager.
I got depressed a lot.
I related to people I read about
In my weather balloon,
Grasping, ignorant, and desperate,
But couldnā€™t relate to other twelve year olds.
After school I read Daliā€™s autobiography,
Young ****** Autosodomized by Her Own Chastity.
Fresh, green nettle with fresh and dried yarrow for purity.
Dead souls enticed to the altar by orange marigolds,
passion and creativity,
Coax sleep and rouse dreams.
Satellites measure indirectly with wave lengths of light.
My weather balloon measures the lower and middle levels of the atmosphere directly,
Fifty thousand feet high,
Metal rod thermometer,
Slide humidity sensor,
Canister for air pressure.

I enjoy rye bread and cold coconut butter in my weather balloon,
But I want Dali, and all the artists and writers.
Rye grows at high altitudes
But papyrus grows in soil and shallow water,
Strips of papyrus pith shucked from their stems.
When an anchorā€™s weighed, a ship sails,
But when grounded we sail.
Marigolds, yarrow and nettle,
Flowerhead,
I use the marigold for sleep,
The yarrow for endurance and intensity,
toiling for love and truth,
And the nettle for healing.
Strong rye bread needs equally strong flavors.
By the beginning of high school,
I read a lot of Beat literature
And found Buddhism.
I loved what I read
But I didnā€™t like some things.
I liked attachment.Ā Ā 
I got to the ground.
Mushrooms grow in dry soil.
Attachment to beauty is Buddha activity.
Not being attached to things I donā€™t find beautiful is Buddha activity.Ā Ā 
I fried mushrooms in a single layer in oil, fleshy.
I roasted mushrooms at high temperatures in the oven, crisp.
I simmered mushrooms in stock with kombu.
Rye bread with cold coconut butter and cremini mushrooms,
raw, soft and firm.Ā Ā 
Life continues, life changes,
Attachments, losses, mourning and suffering,
But change lures growth.
I find stream beds and wet soil.
I lay the strips of papyrus next to each other.
I cross papyrus strips over the first,
Then wet the crossed papyrus strips,
Press and cement them into a sheet.
I hammer it and dry it in the sun,
With no thought of achievement or self,
Flowerhead,
Hands filled with my past,
Head filled with the future,
Dali, artists poets,
Wishes and desires aligned with nature,
Abundance,
Cocoa, caraway, and molasses.

If I ever really like someone,
Iā€™ll be wearing the dress he chooses,
Fresh green nettle and yarrow, the seeds take two years to grow strong,
Lasting love.
Marigolds steer dead souls from the altar to the afterlife,
Antiseptic, healing wounds,
Soothing sore throats and headaches.
Imperturbable, stable flowerhead,
I empty my mind.
When desires are aligned with nature, desire flows.
Papyrus makes paper and cloth.
Papyrus makes sails.
Charcoal from the ash of pulverized papyrus heals wounds.
Without attachment to the fruit of action
There is continuation of life,
Rye bread and melted coconut butter,
The coconut tree in the coconut butter,
The seed comes from the ground out of nothing,
Naturalness.
It has form.
As the seed grows the seed expresses the tree,
The seed expresses the coconut,
The seed expresses the coconut butter.
Rye bread, large open hollows, chambers,
Immersed in melted coconut butter,
Desire for expansion and creation,
No grasping, not desperate.
When the mind is compassion, the mind is boundless.
Every moment,
only that,
Every moment,
a scythe to the papyrus in the stream bed of the past.Ā Ā 

































Sound on Powdery Blue

Potterā€™s clay, nymph, plum unplumbed, 1993.
Dahlia, ice, powder, musk and rose,
my source of life emerged in darkness, blackness.
Seashell fragments in the sand,
The glass ball of my life cracked inside,
Light reflected off the salt crystal cracks,
Nacre kept those cracks from getting worse.
Young ****** Autosodomized By Her Own Chastity,
Nymph, I didnā€™t want to give my body,
Torn, *****, ballgown,
To people who wouldnā€™t understand me,
Piquant.

Outside on the salt flats,
Aphrodite, goddess of beauty, pleasure and fertility and
Asexual Artemis, goddess of animals, and the hunt,
Mistress of nymphs,
Punish with ruthless savagery.

In my bedroom, blue caribou moss covered rocks, pine, and yew trees,
The heartwood writhes as hurricane gales, twisters and whirlwinds
Contort their bark,
Roots strong in the soil.
Orris root dried in the sun, bulbs like wood.
Dahlia runs to baritone soundbath radio waves.
Light has frequencies,
Violet between blue and invisible ultraviolet,
Flame, slate and flint.
Every night is cold.

Torii gates, pain secured as sacred.
An assignation, frost hardy dahlia and a plangent resonant echo.
High frequency sound waves convert to electrical signals,
Breathe from someone I want,
Silt.
Beam, radiate, ensorcel.
I break the bark,
Sap flows and dries,
Resin seals over the tear.
I distill pine,
Resin and oil for turpentine, a solvent.
Quiver, bemired,
I lead sound into my darkness,
Orris butter resin, sweet and warm,
Hot jam drops on snow drops,
Orange ash on smoke,
Balm on lava,
The problem with cotton candy.

Electrical signals give off radiation or light waves,
The narrow frequency range where
The crest of a radio wave and the crest of a light wave overlap,
Infrared.
Glaciers flow, sunlight melts the upper layers of the snow when strong,
A wet snow avalanche,
A torrent, healing.
Brown sugar and whiskey,
Undulant, lavender.
Pine pitch, crystalline, sticky, rich and golden,
And dried pine rosin polishes glass smooth
Like the smell of powdery orris after years.
Softness, flush, worthy/not worthy,
Rich rays thunder,
Intensify my pulse,
Frenzied red,
Violet between blue and invisible ultraviolet.
Babylonā€”flutter, glow.
Unquenchable cathartic orris.Ā Ā 

















Pink Graphite

Camellias, winter shrubs,
Their shallow roots grow beneath the spongy caribou moss,
Robins egg blue.
After writing a play with my gifted students program in 1991,
I stopped spending all my free time writing short stories,
But the caribou moss was still soft.

In the cold Arctic of that town,
The evergreen protected the camellias from the afternoon sun and storms.
They branded hardy camellias with a brass molded embossing iron;
I had paper and graphite for my pencils.

After my ninth grade honors English teacher asked us to write poems in 1994,
It began raining.
We lived on an overhang.
A vertical rise to the top of the rock.
The rainstorm caused a metamorphic change in the snowpack,
A wet snow avalanche drifted slowly down the moss covered rock,
The snow already destabilized by exposure to the sunlight.

The avalanche formed lakes,
rock basins washed away with rainwater and melted snow,
Streams dammed by the rocks.Ā Ā 
My pencils washed away in the avalanche,
My clothes heavy and cold.
I wove one side of each warp fiber through the eye of the needle and one side through each slot,
Salves, ointments, serums and tinctures.
I was mining for graphite.
They were mining me,
The only winch, the sound through the water.

A steep staircase to the red Torii gates,
I broke the chains with bells for vespers
And chimes for schisms,
And wove the weft across at right angles to the warp.Ā Ā 

On a rocky ledge at the end of winter,
The pink moon, bitters and body butter,
They tried to getĀ Ā me to want absinthe,
Wormwood for bitterness and regret.
Heat and pressure formed carbon for flakes of graphite.
Heat and pressure,
I made bitters,
Brandy, grapefruit, chocolate, mandarin rind, tamarind and sugar.
I grounded my feet in the pink moss,
paper dried in one hand,
and graphite for my pencils in the other.Ā Ā 



































Flakes

I donā€™t let people that put me down be part of my life.Ā Ā 
Gardens and trees,
My shadow sunk in the grass in my yard
As I ate bread, turmeric and lemon.
Carbon crystallizes into graphite flakes.
I write to see well,
Graphite on paper.Ā Ā 
A shadow on rock tiles with a shield, a diamond and a bell
Had me ***** to humiliate me.
Though I donā€™t let people that put me down near me,
A lot of people putting me down seemed like they were following me,
A platform to jump from
While she had her temple.Ā Ā 

There was a pink door to the platform.
I ate bread with caramelized crusts and
Drank turmeric lemonade
Before I opened that door,
Jumped and
Descended into blankets and feathers.
I found matches and rosin
For turpentine to clean,
Dried plums and licorice.Ā Ā 

In the temple,
In diamonds, leather, wool and silk,
She had her shield and bells,
Drugs and technology,
Thermovision 210 and Minox,
And an offering box where people believed
That if their coins went in
Their wishes would come true.

Hollyhock and smudging charcoal for work,Ā Ā 
Belled,
I ground grain in the mill for the bread I baked for breakfast.
The bells are now communal bells
With a watchtower and a prison,
Her shield, a blowtorch and flux,
Her ex rays, my makeshift records
Because Stalin didnā€™t like people dancing,
He liked them divebombing.
Impurities in the carbon prevent diamonds from forming,
Measured,
The most hard, the most expensive,
But graphiteā€™s soft delocalized electrons move.Ā Ā 






































OCEAN BED

The loneliness of going to sleep by myself.Ā Ā 
I want a bed thatā€™s high off the ground,
a mattress, an ocean.
I want a crush and thatĀ Ā person in my bed.Ā Ā 
Only that,
a crush in my bed,
an ocean in my bed.Ā Ā 
Just love.Ā Ā 
But I sleep with my thumbs sealed.Ā Ā 
I sleep with my hands, palms up.Ā Ā 
I sleep with my hands at my heart.Ā Ā 
They sear my compassion with their noise.Ā Ā 
They hold their iron over their fire and try to carve their noise into my love,
scored by the violence of voices, dark and lurid,Ā Ā 
but not burned.Ā Ā 
I want a man in my bed.Ā Ā 
When I wake up in an earthquake
I want to be held through the aftershocks.Ā Ā 
I like men,
the waves come in and go out
but the ocean was part of my every day.Ā Ā 
I donā€™t mind being fetishized in the ocean.Ā Ā 
I ran by the ocean every morning.Ā Ā 
I surfed in the ocean.Ā Ā 
I shouldā€™ve gone into the ocean that afternoon at Trestles,
holding my water jugs, kneeling at the edge.Ā Ā 














Morning

I want to fall asleep in the warm arms of a fireman.Ā Ā 
I want to wake up to the smell of coffee in my kitchen.Ā Ā 

Morningā€”the molten lava in the outer core of the earth embeds the iron from the inner core into the earthā€™s magnetic field.Ā Ā 
The magnetic field flips.Ā Ā 
The sun, so strong, where it gets through the trees it burns everything but the pine.Ā Ā 
The winds change direction.Ā Ā 
Storms cast lightening and rain.Ā Ā 
Iron conducts solar flares and the heavy wind.Ā Ā 
In that pine forest, I shudder every time I see a speck of light for fear of neon and fluorescents.Ā Ā The eucalyptus cleanses congestion.Ā Ā 
And Kerouacā€™s stream ululates, crystal bowl sound baths.Ā Ā 
I follow the sound to the water.Ā Ā 
The stream ends at a bluff with a thin rocky beach below.Ā Ā 
The green water turns black not far from the shore.Ā Ā 
Before diving into the ocean, I eat globe mallow from the trees, stems and leaves, the viscous flesh, red, soft and nutty.Ā Ā 
I distill the pine from one of the treeā€™s bark and smudge the charcoal over my skin.Ā Ā 

Death, the palo santoā€™s lit, cleansing negative energy.Ā Ā 
Itā€™s been so long since Iā€™ve smelled a man, woodsmoke, citrus and tobacco.Ā Ā 
Jasmine, plum, lime and tuberose oil on the base of my neck comforts.Ā Ā 
Parabolic chambers heal, sound waves through water travel four times faster.Ā Ā 
The sound of the open sea recalibrates.Ā Ā 
I dissolve into the midnight blue of the ocean.Ā Ā 

I want to fall asleep in the warm arms of a fireman.Ā Ā 
I want to wake up to the smell of coffee in my kitchen.Ā Ā 
I want hot water with coconut oil when I get up.Ā Ā 
Weā€™d lay out on the lawn, surrounded by high trees that block the wind.Ā Ā 
Embers flying through the air wonā€™t land in my yard, on my grass, or near my trees.Ā Ā 





Blue Paper

Haze scatters blue light on a planet.Ā Ā 
Frought women, livid, made into peonies by Aphrodites that caught their men flirting and blamed the women, flushed red.
and blamed the women, flushed red.
Frought women, livid, chrysanthemums, dimmed until the end of the season, exchanged and retained like property.Ā Ā 
Blue women enter along the sides of her red Torii gates, belayed, branded and belled, a plangent sound.Ā Ā 
By candles, colored lights and dried flowers sheā€™s sitting inside on a concrete floor, punctures and ruin burnished with paper, making burnt lime from lime mortar.Ā Ā 
Glass ***** on the ceiling, she moves the beads of a Palestinian glass bead bracelet she holds in her hands.Ā Ā 
She bends light to make shadows againstĀ Ā thin wooden slats curbed along the wall, and straight across the ceiling.
A metier, she makes tinctures, juniper berries and cotton *****.
Loamy soil in the center of the room,
A hawthorn tree stands alone,
A gateway for fairies.
large stones at the base protecting,
Itā€™s branches a barrier.Ā Ā 
Itā€™s leaves and shoots make bread and cheese.
Itā€™s berries, red skin and yellow flesh, make jam.
Green bamboo stakes for the peonies when they whither from the weight of their petals.
And lime in the soil.Ā Ā 
She adds wood chips to the burnt lime in the kiln,
Unrolled paper, spools, and wire hanging.
Wood prayer beads connect her to the earth,
The tassels on the end of the beads connect her to spirit, to higher truth.
Minerals, marine mud and warm basins of seawater on a flower covered desk.Ā Ā 
She adds slaked lime to the burnt lime and wood chips.Ā Ā 
The lime converts to paper,
Trauma victims speak,
Light through butterfly wings.Ā Ā 
Sheā€™s plumeria with curved petals, thick, holding water
This is what I have written of my book.  Iā€™ll be changing where the poems with the historical research go.  There are four more of those and nine of the other poems.
Tom Leveille  Oct 2014
jamais vu
Tom Leveille Oct 2014
and i am eleven again
feeling like tomorrow
is a couple yesterday's ago
smothered in cayenne pepper
hot enough to take off taste buds
and tonight i am eating a meal
only worth burning
it tastes like my parents anniversary
it tastes like a zinfandel
left on the counter too long
it's a bad story, see
there's no silverware
'cause my mom sold it
to keep the lights on
and somewhere in heaven
somebody in a suit
doing commentary
on this fiasco
is telling someone else
in a suit that
"you have to eat love with your hands"
so we sit, four plates on the table
for the two of us
my brother's long gone
dad's even further away
& he's not the one who's buried
i carry both their names like anchors
that i cannot unmoor from
while she looks at the empty table
and says something about the news
she says something else
but she's not talking
we aren't proud of this, see
my dad likes to wax his car
he's proud of it
and my mom says
she sees a lot of him in my hands
says, i touch the things i find
like they didn't belong
to people sleeping in the ground
she says i touch photo albums
the same way-
you know,
i never used to believe
that history could repeat itself
not until i could
fast forward seventeen years
and still wake up to smoke alarms
how i would go into our kitchen
to find it empty
and the dinner smoldering
& my mother in her bedroom
looking through family photos
like it's a just another summer day
and the sirens are just the birds
i don't ask, i never say a word
in this moment
i am an archeologist
afraid to dig up the past
cause history repeats itself-
you see
my brother is dead
and my father is gone
they have been for some years now
and my mother
sometimes forgets
and sets their place at the table
like they're still here
and in the confusion
ends up ankle deep
in pictures of how it used to be
she let's dinner burn
and douses it in red pepper
hoping i won't know the difference
Emma Watson Jun 2016
It's duller now

I only see you in my suggested friends list... or in tagged posts.
Or in your sister's comment threads.

But I still remember when seeing you on my timeline made me burn up. At first it was ginger, spicy and sweet. Talking to you made me feel like I had the universe in my head; probably because you told me you were studying the string theory and you knew how stars formed.

After a while I didn't feel a burn anymore. I didn't feel anything in my head except empty and I didn't know how to remedy it, except by putting all of myself towards keeping you from feeling the same. I lost myself; you found me, absorbed my strength, and said you had none to give back when I needed it.

The night you tried to **** yourself wasn't ginger, cayenne, or even the weak sting of crushed black pepper. It was pure peppermint oil: molten silver and acidic. I have no other words for it. It hurt almost as bad as when, after weeks of not knowing if you were dead or alive, you texted me.

"So, your cousin is pretty amazing... we've only been talking a week but I think I'm in love with her?"

That was cayenne...
But now I guess I've built up a tolerance.
It doesn't hurt anymore.

— The End —