Hey! I know you hear me,
I know **** comes at you
With intent to blind u so u can't see.
Tip, tipsy, drunk, insanity
I'm screaming and yelling
I love you infinitely.
You've ran, you've hid.
From the memory of
All u did.
Two kids r awaiting.
Keep going and they'll b hating.
Why, do u fall so far?
What if u pass out,
Behind the wheel of a car?
I'm fighting not to yell and curse,
Cause I dont wanna be following a Hearst.
You call me. Confused.
Don't like this abuse.
It's all around you.
People tryn to use....
Use your soul.
Until it's old.
Rotten and cold.
Can't seem to get in your head.
Show u where to go,
Cause I don't want you dead.
Aaron. Let's the air in the room.
He smiles and lights up.
Life is good. For the turn of the moon.
That ******* bottle.
I wanna break them all.
Tell u that u can't wallow.
Your inner strength is your pain.
And when u cry it's like the pouring rain.
I never saw my mom's death.
I can never say I've had it worse.
U sat all alone at 8yo.
And watched her last breath.
I know that's where it comes from deep within.
U fight day by day. To not pick up that sin.
A guiding hand,
A word of might.
Maybe if I tell u how much
You matter.
U won't die tonight.
To a dearest friend
Aaron.
I love you, you r my family.
Those kids who made it out of hell.
Still hiding in that hard shell.
Cuz we don't know where else to be.
I said I believed in u.
And that was no lie.
Can't imagine how painful it is.
That I gotta watch u cry.
Fear. And doubt crumbles the hope
You hide.
No matter what!
I forgive you.
I always do.
Can't be on this ride.
And expect everything to be new.
So like I said before...
Put the bottle down.
Sober up.
U can't keep falling
Insideout. On your crown.
*To Aaron.
It's not over.
Until u look in the mirror.
And start caring'.
I feel like I can't catch my friends. That alcohol will always win.