3AM 3AM thoughts are not a thing of beauty. 3AM thoughts haunt you. They do not care if you have school the next day. They do not care if you have to wake up early the next day. Hell, they do not care if you've stayed up the past week because of them. 3AM thoughts are romanticized. They are not something you want. They are not something you need. They are not something you desire. 3AM thoughts chill you to the bone They cause anxiety They cause bad grades They cause chaos 3AM thoughts cause tears. They do not fill you with happiness They do not fill you with hope They do not fill you with future goals. 3AM thoughts haunt you With "what ifs" With "why wasn't I good enough" With "will I ever be good enough" 3AM thoughts fill you with questions that will never be answered. "What if I was skinnier" "What if I was prettier" "What did I do" 3AM thoughts are all about you.
i want to write a poem and list all the things that haven't broken in your world not everything has fallen apart into those pieces you see all the time not everything is all tears and blood and heartbreak because there is so much more hiding under the surface, that you are trying not to see why aren't you trying to see it? all the smiles and laughter and words that we shared what about that time we stayed up until 3 am talking about that book you like the one I don't even like or understand but 3am is the time to listen to happy things not the sad things about death and the tears you have so stop thinking about that at 3am spend those thoughts in broad daylight because things will always look better with drops of sunlight falling on them instead of tear drops stop dropping tears on the things that are already sad enough you have enough sadness so stop focusing on the things that make you upset and focus on the laughs you had and the smiles you got from a walk through your life and the happiness that we shared all the time or do you not remember that? do you know remember how I laughed with you how I laughed even though your jokes weren't funny and no one else was laughing except for me and you doesn't that mean anything to you? don't you remember how I held you through the dark times and told you that it's okay to be sad everyone is but no, you don't remember how I told you everyone was sad sometimes you think you're the only one who has darkness inside them to you everyone else is just enjoying the sunshine while you are crying at 3am what world are you living in? everyone cries at 3am they can't help it the world is so warped and twisted around them that they try to grin at 3am and laugh along with the rest of the day but no one does all that comes out is tears tears that aren't fake no matter how much you think everyone cries at 3am they cry in their sleep they cry tears huddled up in bed they cry on the bridge as they try to end it they cry as they get the call "it's over. I don't love you" they cry as their beloved pet fish slowly sinks down into it's tank they cry as they realize that you don't know that they cry too. they cry tears of blood sometimes or just tears of water that they haven't drank in a month not everyone shows how they broken they are you know some bottle it up and try to enjoy the sunlight but the problem is that then it all comes out at 3am when there is no light to shine on their problems there's only darkness to show them what they think they think they're all alone and that no one cares enough to check up on them, hiding in the dark but you can do it all better you can push past the urges at 3am and smile instead of cry because you can do it for them dive deep under the ocean your tears have formed because not everyone has to cry at 3am you can make it.
(tw for suicide and blood mention as well as sad stuff)