Joy is rarely brought into your life by the success of others
One, whose success brings joy into your life and whose failure brings you grief
Is one you should hold
One that makes you fortunate
For you have attained selfless joy
A rare marvel of mankind that none have understood
Yet all wish to obtain

Doubt is such a beautiful terror
It's black waves begin like a starless nightfall
It will set up shop inside your mind
It will infiltrate your every thought
And enter the business of trading souls
You will not recognize it until it's too late
By then you will have traded in more than you can cash
Cheque. Bounced.

The cars sped past me
thumbs up, I didn't lose hope
hours later, the sound of traffic filled my ears
yet I stood there with a bright smile
greeted with insults and scared faces
I began to walk
the path was not in my favour
when finally, I reached my destination
content with myself, I expected to be received with open arms
arms-they were, open-they were not
putting on my armour
I began to walk

Be the alcohol
to my cut
and help me heal