it was fast and it was rocky                              
and it was the most passionate thing            
i’d ever experienced in my whole entire life
and i haven’t felt as alive as i did when i was
with you, and i haven’t felt since i was with
you.

S.W

I smell of stale cigarettes
and my makeup is always off
and I can't stop listening
to sad songs that remind me of you
and people say to me
'get over him he isn't worth it'
but I know that every
single second spent with you
were the most precious because
even if we did nothing but stole kisses
and held hands under the blanket
it was still a successful day
because you were my poison and
my cure. you broke me and fixed me
all at the same time.

WHY ARENT I OVER YOU ITS BEEN TWO ******* YEARS
YOU DONT EVEN TALK TO ME ANYMORE                                
YOU DONT EVEN ******* CARE ABOUT ME                          

YOU MADE THAT CLEAR WHEN YOU DECIDED DRUGS WERE
SO MUCH MORE IMPORTANT THAN BEING THERE FOR ME    
YOU MADE IT CLEAR WHEN YOU HAD YOUR                              
TONGUE DOWN HER MOTHER ******* THROAT                    

SO WHY THE **** DO I STILL CARE FOR YOU                                
AND THINK OF YOU WHEN YOU PROBABLY HAVENT                  
THOUGHT OF ME SINCE I LOOKED YOU IN THE EYES                      
AND TOLD YOU I NEEDED YOU

AND YOU WALKED AWAY

S.W

i loved him
he loved me
but when there is 700 miles
between two teenage hearts
sometimes love is not
nearly enough.

s.w

I wonder if you think of me
I wonder if your friends told you I say hi
I wonder if after they did you remembered

I hope you did, I hope you remembered
that I gave you every single piece of me
and you only gave me a part of you
because you were afraid,

you were afraid that I'd break your heart
but little did we both know, you broke mine,
but I don't think it gives the way I feel any justice,

you completely smashed my heart
into pieces so tiny that I haven't been able to
find any of them and it's been two years.

i think you're hiding them, because
everywhere I look I can't seem to find them.
I know where your part of you is.
it's buried into my pores, into my mind, my soul.
that even though it was minuscule it'll be there forever.

because I promised you id always care
and that I wouldn't break your heart
but darling, what we know now
is that it was never really
mine to break.

S.W

for some reason
I can't stop searching the faces
of all strangers that pass me
in hopes that I might
possibly find you in this
empty, godforsaken city

“He had hazel eyes and street smarts” She said, smiling ruefully.

“She had viridescent eyes and a guarded heart” He murmured, his eyes shining

“I was leaving in 6 months and he had a troubled soul” She touched her lips as if remembering a kiss

“She smelled like fantasy and tasted like melon lip gloss” He couldn't take his eyes off his hands

“I think he tried to love me,” She said

“I loved her more than anything in the world,” He said

And it's that word: ‘tried’, that gets caught in her throat. She takes a breath and continues.

As if the memory of her was too much to bear, he got up and walked away.

I can't stop thinking
about the next time
I see your face

I can rehearse
and rehearse
what I'll do
what I'll say

but all I'll know
is that you
didn't
stay.
S.W

i remember the night you called me,
completely intoxicated by
good people and cheap alcohol,
you told me, you’d
never love anyone
as much as you
love(d)
me.
S.W

and i called your number for the
first time in months
and all i heard back was
‘your call could not
be connected please check the
number and try again’ and that was
when i realised that i should live in the now
not in the then.
s.w