I'm so sorry I lied,
It was the only place to go the only place I could hide,
I'm sorry I know it hurt,
I just never expected him to treat me like dirt,
I promise you my actions I regret deeply,
I just never thought you'd love me so completely,
I promise I'm only yours now and always,
Unless you keep up the drugs and don't care because you're in a daze,
Promise me you'll stay forever true,
And my heart will forever belong to you.

I'm finally with the man I've loved so long,
So why do I still remember you're face hitting that ****,
My heart is still closed I can not love,
Because you're still blocking my emotions my little dove,
I think he might truly be the one,
But how can I love him when I haven't gotten closure with you my feelings aren't done,
He treats me as though I'm his queen,
He was always there for me after you fled the scene,
So how can I still be caught up on a ******* like you,
Maybe when we dated you left me scared and you knew,
I want to be able to once more love like I did,
Freely and recklessly without boundaries or a lid.

When I write all of my poems I think about you,
Then I read the ones you wrote me and reminis on all the hell you put me through,
Its been over a year and four months and you still have my heart,
I still can't get over it my life is in pieces and my head ripped apart,
I know you can tell when I'm desperate to talk to you that I'm withering away,
Please send something back I know you haven't run out of words to say,
I'm begging all I need is some closure,
I can no longer fake this smile and keep my composure,
Im not yet sure how this can be achieved,
I only know I need to ease this pain and be relieved,
You think she loves you more than I,
But in reality you know she never will you're living in a beautiful lie,
All I'm asking for is a few conversations I just need a little time,
I know you still love me I write about it everyday with a rhyme,
So please give me one more chance,
Just promise me you'll stop trying to get in every girls pants.

I just want to cut and scream and cry,
But I can't I have to hide behind this smile this lie,
I have to act like I'm happy and filled with joy,
While people step on me and abuse me like an old forgotten toy,
I make sure I keep all the pain hidden well,
I keep my secrets deep down so I'll never tell,
I get ****** up to forget,
But I can only stand for so long while I'm getting hit,
I'm begging for a reprimand,
But I'm to withered to ask for a hand,
So let me end this right here,
I'm not afraid of the nothingness I have no fear.

I'm so drunk I can't think straight,
but talking to you helps me block out  all the hate,
I want to let you in,
But I can't I don't want you to know my sin,
How ****** up I am in the head,
**** I hope you're amazing in bed,
I hope we have no regrets,
You look so **** hot smoking your cigarets,
You fill me with happiness and bliss,
I feel so different when you give me a kiss,
You don't know how much I'm filled with saddness,
Or when I go crazy from my madness,
Please hold me down and be my weight,
I don't want time to go by it could be too late.

You're so scared because soon everyone will see,
How ****** you really treated me,
You used to be my sunshine,
Now you walk all over me and expect everything to be fine,
We used to have such a burning fire,
Now you're just my desire,
You don't even care for me,
But why should you when I let you free,
Free from my grasp so tight,
I'm sure it won't be long before you're cheating on your new ***** at night.

Stop longing for a happy place,
There's not one that's a pointless dream to chase,
If you want to be happy so bad,
There's only one way to do it that's being mad,
So if you want to hear about happiness here it is,
This isn't ******* show biz,
People like you and me will never be happy,
Because our lives will always be nothing but ******,
So this is my only advise,
You're happier when you don't have a life.

I love when I read poems that rhyme,
They're the only ones worth my time,
It's even better when they're twisted like the mentally ill,
I think that was my fiftieth pill,
Oh those were just what I needed,
And I don't give a **** what anyone thinks because I'm so self conceited,
All you really need to be a writer is a little depressed,
But I don't give a **** I could careless.

I hear the church bell ringing,
And that loud *** choir singing,
Except I'm not religious and never have been,
So send me to hell so I can burn forever in the devils den,
I'm sorry but I don't believe there's a god ,
I think it's all just a scam and a facade ,
But how can I be so sure,
When everyone's shouting it's the only cure,
I guess because my life's been so full of sorrow,
This world would be better off if I wasn't here tomorrow.

That smell is so sweet,
For days I haven't had anything to eat,
I've just been depressed for so long,
This is it I'm writing my last love song,
I'm so tired of living in this dream,
When I have no voice and can't even scream,
I ask what would make you happy what could I do,
But I can't do anything because it's always all about you,
When our fight is at it's peak,
I fall to the ground the world darkening as I become too weak.

One day your soul will be forgotten,
Because no one will ever care about you if you keep acting so rotten,
You act like such a child,
But I love you because you're so wild,
I keep trying to forget,
But my head won't let me it keeps remembering our script,
Things were left so broken,
Not from the things said but words left unspoken,
Back then I gave you too much power,
I had forgotten how weak you were until you started to cower,
I thought you'd step up and be a man,
But you left me crying because you had a different plan.

The look in your eyes when you stole my virginity was pure evil,
Then you acted like you could do whatever you wanted like you were ******* knievel,
You treated me like dirt and knew I would stay,
But what you didn't know and couldn't find the words to say,
Is that one day you'll love me too,
From the beginning that I always knew,
But you could never be honest you always lied,
So in the end you just pushed me aside.

The last one I loved was him,
But we were no Kanye and Kim,
While I watched him always flirting,
He didn't know how bad I was twisted and hurting,
I spent my life on you when you were only seventeen,
And I saw my future with you but it was only a cruel daydream,
Then things stopped working,
And all those ****** started lurking,
Slowly you slipped away,
Without leaving me anything not even a word to say.

What if I actually love you,
Then what will we do,
I loved you so much only so you could then break my heart,
But that wasn't enough for you, you dug deeper to tear me apart,
And now look at what's left of me,
I'm broken and shattered you can't disagree,
You locked my heart up and threw away the key,
I tried to get you to love me back it was my only plea,
But I was never good enough for you,
So you went around talking about me so everyone else knew,
I was nothing to you but a good ****,
And when you found everything else I had to offer you thought it was just luck,
But that's not quite true,
Because one day I promise I'll make you love me as much as I've always loved you,
And when I finally make your heart mine,
I'll show every one that you're nothing but a ***** swine.

I love you so much,
Babe all I need is your touch,
Don't ever let go,
So then I will always know,
I want to always be sure,
So I won't have to doubt anymore,
I know you're such a player,
All you think about is how you're gonna lay her,
Can't I make you throw those thoughts away,
Or to you is our love just a cliche,
Then I start to cry,
As you begin to feed me your lie,
I only want you to love,
But I know it's not going to happen when push comes to shove.

I lean over to whisper a secret in your ears,
Something that I knew you'd remember for years,
Then I look and can tell by your eyes,
You now know everything has only been lies,
Then you begin to get rash,
As you remember all the memories of our past,
I give you some suggestions,
But you're to busy thinking of all the questions,
I'll never forget the look upon your face,
Or how amazing you taste,
I never imagined this is how you'd be,
However, now you've made me see,
As I think about our past bliss,
I'll regret not getting one last kiss.

Someday some old familiar rain,
Will come along and know my name
And then my shelter will be gone,
And I'll have to move along.
But till I do I'll stay awhile
And track the hidden country of your smile,
But till that time I'll tell you lies,
And chart the hidden boundaries of your eyes.

I can't believe it has been a year,
I don't love you any less my dear,
I promise I still love you so,
How much I'll never let you know,
We might not be together now,
But I promise I'll find a way how,
Unlike you my promises I keep,
You've made me cry and made me weep,
However my love never wavers,
No matter how many times you ask for unjust favors.