My body is shaking
I can't breathe
It feels as if I'm drowning
Gasping for air
Tear falling down my face
Head pounding with pain
My mind can't control
what I am doing anymore
I want to stop
I want to breathe
I want to be in control
But I can't
The tears won't stop falling
I can taste the salt
I can feel the fear
I can feel the pain

But when it's finally over
I pretend it never happened
Like everything is perfectly okay
Like I could always breathe with ease
Like I never cried for hours
Like I never felt the pain
I keep on pretending