Rochelle

Rochelle Jun 2015

Anxiety

My body is shaking
I can't breathe
It feels as if I'm drowning
Gasping for air
Tear falling down my face
Head pounding with pain
My mind can't control
what I am doing anymore
I want to stop
I want to breathe
I want to be in control
But I can't
The tears won't stop falling
I can taste the salt
I can feel the fear
I can feel the pain

But when it's finally over
I pretend it never happened
Like everything is perfectly okay
Like I could always breathe with ease
Like I never cried for hours
Like I never felt the pain
I keep on pretending

Rochelle May 2015

Untitled

you
or you

my heart
it aches

for you
and you.

Rochelle Mar 2015

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Take me away.
Save me from me.
I'm my own worst enemy.

Take me away.
From the pain I endure.
I self harm in ways I never have before.

Take me away.
I know that you can.
I just need you to reach for my hand.

Take me away.
For the rest of our lives.
So I can be happy for the first time.

#love #harm #pain

Rochelle Mar 2015

VS.

You're fat.
Look at those rolls.
You can't fit through the door.
How many chins are those?
You remind me of a whale.

I am beautiful

Butterface.
You make me want to ****.
Don't you wash your face?
Acne must live on your body.
It looks like there's craters are your face.

I am beautiful

You're too fat to be at the gym.
Salad? Don't kid yourself.
You need to lose weight.
Your thighs are huge.
You look pregnant.

I am beautiful

You can't do this

I am beautiful

You're so ugly.

I am beautiful

Stop believing in yourself

**I. Am. Beautiful.

mind vs. mind

#self #harm #abuse #beauty #mental #shaming

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