It's hard to believe
in fate
Until it happens
Blood on blood
Running on your skin
Dark tattoos of pain
On your soul
On your floor
You bleed
until you can bleed
no more
You bleed until
You are empty

You've starved my memories of you.
Preventing them from growing and experiencing a full life. I watched the fetus of our relationship die. I felt it decay within me. You decided to abort the child with the assumption that we'd never be able to raise it correctly, and that I shall never understand. Because whether that kid grew up to be the woman that cured cancer or the boy that died from a ****** overdose in his teens, I would have loved it with everything I had and appreciated every moment of its life.

I have so much to say
Yet can not speak
Your name out loud
I want to scream
Confessions from the
Other side
Haunt my eyes
Just below the surface
I cry.
I beg.
I feel somehow incomplete.
Sometimes I wish
She had agreed,
Said yes dear, that is fine.
Let me go like the others.
Bled me out onto
white cotton sheets
staining them with
my personality
not yet formed
inside her skin
Said goodbye
Never knowing the hell
It has been.