Taste the dust at my feet,
The kicking, pumping action,
Wielding beneath my flight driven feet.
Ahead I am, and ahead I shall remain,
Still back there, you will forever be.
Nothing can hold me back,
My conviction miles down the path,
So far ahead of you,
There is nothing you can do.
Talk and hate, and try to relate,
Even try to duplicate,
But you could never beat me,
I am the sun, the light, the sky,
And you are but the shadow,
That lies defeated at my feet.

Feed off of the wounds of deep,
Scars that will forever keep,
Hold of time, hold of me.
Let it be,
Flourishing with every planted seed,
Growing, reaping from within.
Suffocation, but this I need,
Let it be, within me.
Supposed to help see,
Clearly, gently.
Let go.
Let the father hold me,
Fall gently,
Embracing,
Ascending into the darkness,
Resting upon his hand,
Stars and lights,
Surround.
The earth below me,
A grain of sand,
Let it be,
Don’t try to control,
What can’t be.
Take a deep breath,
Rest.
Eternally.

Not very much do I understand,
I don’t know why I’m here, or for what purpose, not even for how long.
Nor will I ever know the meaning of justice, the meaning of love.
Never will I harness the taste of truth, if there is such a thing.
I’ll never know why I don’t have wings so that I can fly away from here, oh how I long for this.
So many questions, even too many to count perhaps,
But, one thing I do understand is the beauty that is music.
The one thing that I can create and feel.
It’s a perfect connection, a surge of unyielding ecstasy.
A potent drug that takes me so high that nothing can bring me down.
My wings appear as I play harmoniously almost completely autonomously.
Flowing ever so smoothly with vibrant color and emotion.
Nothing can compare, nothing ever will.
A little taste of heaven perhaps.
A little less empty.
A little less to fill.

Walking, talking, thinking…….
Streaming information to myself, detached from the now.
Hoping, fantasizing, imagining, the possibilities…..
Floating above the clouds in artificial ecstasy.
Rain drops fall on my head, slowly but increasing in frequency.
Back to reality, back to melancholy.
The clouds above me swallow all the light,
Time for the nightmares……
The children appear.
The children with dark, cold eyes gaze into me.
Just two at first, just in front of me…..
They grow in number, and power.
Overtaking, gasping, I fall to my knees.
Can’t breathe, can’t see inside my mind.
They surround me; they begin to absorb me…..
My body starts to leave me, my consciousness weakening.
Veins burst out as I fight to regain control……
Relentless, the children’s gaze takes hold of my soul.
Holding onto nothing, retreating, submission crosses my mind……
But not this time, not again.
Never again….
I regain focus; find my grip in the pouring rain.
Back on my feet running through the crowds of gazing darkness….
Pure resolve, absolute control, I spot a ray of light in the distance.
They try to hold me back, grab hold of my legs…….
But I break free…….
Reaching the sliver of light,
Guarded heavily…..
Held back by many……
I break through.
Free.
Back to my sunny dreams.