I wish i could undo what she did to you.
I wish i could undo all the awful things you've had to struggle through.
But life doesn't work that way, you & i, we work in two's.
Like a vastly complex machine, with bolts and screws.
I'm trying to be something that doesn't fail you-
Someone you can hold onto.
  
Have you ever wanted to give someone the world;
as if they were the world itself?
I'd like to offer you all of me.
The depths of my mind & the unsubtle rumbling inside.
Maybe then you'd forget her in your untold dreams.
Honesty isn't always just quite what it seems.

Like a shadow hanging over you, she haunts you as i'm holding you.
Telling you i won't stay, that just like her- I will be the same.
Shut it out, for you & for me.
I'm here, as long as you'll have me. 

(s.m)

I'm trying to see the silver lining but the only one i can ever remember was the one around the tip of your gun. As if killing things for fun was somehow a release from within you, as the bullet released from your barrel took last breaths from their lungs. Leaving holes in chests was something you've always done well. My broken heart could never be cocked back and ready for another shot, but you reload your gun and move on as if i was nothing more than your next ****. Silly girl, don't be fooled by the thrill. The boy who shoot hearts out never had sympathy for girls crying by the window sill.

(s.m)

I met you at your worst but even then i knew you were the best thing to ever happen to me. You looked at me with so much fear in your eyes, as if girls were sharp curves and nice words entirely made up of deceit and lies. I glanced back in an utter confusion wondering if i had come at the wrong time; was i waiting in an endless line? Suppose you & i had crossed paths first and you loved without caution and fear of being hurt. That is what i vow to do, i plan to do the impossible and not erase, but reverse time for you. You're going to trust again, trust me. I promise to wait in this line, no matter how endless it may be, because with patience comes greatness and with you that is all see

(s.m)

I've been meaning to write you, but my words are all too stuck in their ways. They wish to be spoken and long to be felt, but to be honest they all lack virtue. All they can do now is hurt you.

Drenched in dopamine
These words swim within
Gasping for air  
They plead for solace
In the jungle of thought  
They inhale agony
And exhale apathy  
They are jaded implicitly
These words
I secretly imprisoned
Still inconvenience me
They ******* my heart
Despite their innocence
I can not trust them
Hence my silence
Hence the look in my eyes
My stomach was weak
I saw novelty in every lie
But to be honest  
I been meaning to ask
Is it too late for us?