I’ve spent too long
locked in this dark
tower
Thinking myself a
damsel in need of
rescue.
But I’m remembering now
I’m a warrior
And capable of
saving myself.

He laid with me in the puddles of blood
Red linen and decaying pillows
I made my bed of truths and he watched me fall asleep
He pushed my hair away from my tearful eyes
Exposing every piece of evidence
The kind that proved I was in fact, heartless
I cried for the truth and I yearned to be able to feel
A cautious soul who never learned how to love
It's all I was to myself and now what I'll always be to him

Oh I loved you
I held you so close to my heart
Idolizing every breath you took
I was vein and I had faith in you
Your lies were truths, until the end
I saw past the mistakes and I held u high
Higher than I've ever been
You were all I had and I lost it all
Only to survive

We try so hard to look for the love which we desire
Yet none of us know that what we want won't always be delivered
We ask and plead, but there's no
need
As we progress, we grow, mature, and learn
Take in responsibilities and learn to love simplicity on its own
Take or give a couple of inexplicable circumstances
And you're given a life
Breath in the new and release the old because life is about adventure and prospering where you never thought possible
Because what you desire is not always given, but what is delivered can grow a mountain of love

Time spent thinking of you
Breathe wasted speaking of you
Headaches reoccur because of you
It's the love that won't fade
The part of me that still cares
But it's the stronger part of me who serves as a reminder
That you're no good and you never were
That if I were with you
Time would be eternally wasted
My breath would shorten from fighting
And the headaches would turn into migraines

You and me
A simmering hum in the night
Birds chirping
Creatures crawling under wooden boards
A mother's touch
Small but meaningful
We start as a minuscule joy
Only to turn into the joyous laughter of the day
A sunrise
A parade

The pain felt deep in my hollow chest, can only be felt for so long
Soon I’ll stop crying and I won't heave in pain
My chest won’t feel so damaged and suffocated
I’ll begin to breath
All while you’ve been fine
Your chest is gleaming and your smile has grown wider
You don’t look at me the same way
I’m an object but wasn’t I always
I’ll feel eternally idiotic for being put through it all
Had I been a little uglier, you would have never stayed
Had I been prettier, you would have stayed
I wish it wasn’t true but as my heart heaves and my breath shortens, I now know why you came
To stare at the horizon only to turn away when the sun comes up
To watch the movie without listening
You came for the view; not the person inside  
I could say I’m heartless, that I feel no pain
But these stomps on my chest are marks
They will stay and they will remind me with every bruise why I left