Searched for the clock and it says 7:04

Reminiscing memories I always ponder

Of the guy who made me feel I am the strongest

Then left me shattered,

now I’m on my weakest.

I'd like to cut my heart open
to take you out
or maybe
to see you one more time

but when i said
‘living on the edge,’
this was never
what i meant.

what i meant was real party all night
without parents’ permission;
not a pity party at night
with my self-destructing notions.

what i meant was real rollercoasters,
or go on life adventures;
not roller coasters
of all my life’s emotions.

what i meant was swim in the ocean,
or face my darkest fear.
not an ocean of my
darkest fears face me.

but i when i said
put ‘happy’ and ‘die’ together,
i meant to actually ‘die happy’
not to be ‘happy dying.’

.............I found
    some           words
that                              I
can                         use
       to                 bind
            you with

There's the high,
And there's the low
Oh, but the numbness in the middle,
Feels most like home to me.

He, being the sun,
He stole the blue sky.
He left me nothing but
the storm clouds

And storm clouds cry.