I would do absolutely
Anything  right now to be
Able  to snuggle up next  to
You, bury my head in your chest,
And  interlock  my fingers with yours.
I'd be  able to look up at you and
Smile whenever i wanted to.
I'd  be  able to lean up kiss you whenever
I wanted to.
I'd be able to tell you how  i feel about you whenever
I wanted to.

In the sea of desk there's talk of
bags & games
and long pipes that leak dreams
with strike of a match
and there's a loudness to the
whispers i hear
whispers shouldn't be that
loud, should they?
There's a girl over there who
everyone knows
and men without ears who will
stand by the door for a price
In long hallways, there are angry
mobs of dwarves and rats
and one single angel.

Honey why you calling me so late?
It's kinda hard to talk right now.
Honey why are you crying? Is everything okay?
I gotta whisper 'cause I can't be too loud

Well, my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's funny that you're calling me tonight
And, yes, I've dreamt of you too
And does he know you're talking to me
Will it start a fight
No I don't think she has a clue

Well my girl's in the next room
Sometimes I wish she was you
I guess we never really moved on
It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

It's really good to hear your voice saying my name
It sounds so sweet
Coming from the lips of an angel
Hearing those words it makes me weak

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

And I never wanna say goodbye
But girl you make it hard to be faithful
With the lips of an angel

Honey why you calling me so late?

If you will die for me,
I will die for you
And our graves will be like
2 lovers washing their clothes together
In a laundry mat,
If you bring the soap
I will bring the bleach.

I let you down and
I started to run,
Never meant to be your pain
Oh my god, What have i become?

Your love was the most painful.
You love could ****.
You made my heart beat to hard where it hurt.
You gave me butterflies that had blades as wings...
You didn't care all though you  act like  you did.
You said  you loved me.
That was a lie.
You are a lie.
I wish my heart would stop beating for you,
I wish the butterflies would leave.
Since you hurt me why not just **** me?

A sting in the heart, a lump in the throat,
It's a silent night as your gaze misses mine.
Shoulders hunched, head hung, a tear held back and a bitten lip. Say Anything I plea.
Pillows damp with tears, stomach full of fears.
Anything to get back those wonderful years.
One last straw to forget your flaw, it's too late as the curtains draw.
Moving on now,
Slow and steady. Looking back my heart is heavy.
Too many hits for one lifetime,
Unable to recover to be with one another.

My mind runs away to you,
So sick of this lonely earth,
When i cant escape to  any other place in my mind.
I think of all the good times.
Even those bad times,
Especially the funny times.
But the worst out  of it all.
Is falling in love with your beautiful face.

If one day you woke up.
And i was gone,
Don't cry,  Don't grieve.
Don't write paragraphs about how much you  loved me.
Because,
When i was alone in my darkest hours,
You weren't the one that would stay up all night
And make sure i was alright.
Don't say i was a wonderful girl and  wonder
How people could be so cruel,
Because on some ways,
You were the reason i might've
Took my life that night.

I really miss you...
Are you aware.
Of the closeness
We once had.
The laughter we shared.
Sensual nights of passion
Our love so strong
Us against the world
Where did you go.
Yes i can see you...
Sitting in your chair.
Nodding and smiling
Pretending to listen
Where are your thoughts
They are not with me..
Please come back.
Your breaking my heart.
Im lost without you.
All i have left
Are my tears.

The emptiness that I feel inside
Doesn't have words that I can describe
The loneliness I feel throughout
It was her fault without a doubt
She's still alive but to me she's dead
Of everything that we've ever said
I can't stand to live with her
All the time we fight
Because I don't forget anything
Nothing's alright
My Dad says she cares
He says that she's stable
When I was cutting myself
She only cared about the table
I don't know how I'll feel today or tomorrow
'Cause every other day is a day I feel sorrow
Some kids are lucky
Not having to deal with this bomb
Because this poems about you, so called--Mom.

“Roses are Dead, Violets are Crying,
My garden has wilted,
I got tired of trying,
The butterflies disappeared, i don’t feel them inside,
And i really do fear, that they have also died,
The vines are cut down,
The animals are lifeless on the ground,
My garden is vacant, nothing alive has
Been found, i’m falling asleep,
Everything is black, i’m actually happy,
There is no going back”

Why am i always chasing after
Stars out of reach in the sky?
When my  wings are broken and useless,
And i dont even know how to fly?

Why do i stare at the heavens
And wish for angels in the clouds?
When im trpped on the cold earth
And rooted  firm in the desolate ground?

What would the galaxys want
With a wandering soul in the dark?
When there are comets amongst the planets,
That leave sparkling trails in their hearts?

Ill cut out of sail from my dreams,
And crash my cracked ship in the sea.
I doubt there will be any stars in heaven
That shine in remeberance of me.

Little girl,
loved and cared for,
little girl,
had a good life,
little girl was once happy,
at first,
little girl didn't believe the bullies,
but the death threats and names got to her,
her home was her only escape..
until it became just like her bullies,
she cried everyday,
no one saw her tears,
she screamed,
no one heard her,
she didn't eat,
no one noticed,
she hurt so bad,
she went to the knife..
which was so nice she went back
every night.
No one dared to care,
alone in this world.
Abused and used.
Drugs and drinking.
She dug into her arm
and hit the vein,
she let herself go..
let go of the pain.
But also had the pain let go of her.

Hidden behind theses eyes
Is a broken girl.
Shes lost and deeply hurt,
She wants to find the one
To save her.
But no one could risk this battle.
You may not notice.
But this girl is
dead.

I drew a butterfly on my wrist,
In hope that this feeling would no longer persist.
But things got bad and i started to cry
So the butterfly on my wrist, It had to die.
Once again i tried to set myself free,
But it seemed my thoughts had stolen the key.
So  this butterfly lived a very short life.
Killed with fear and a very sharpe knife...

Walking through the cloud and rain,
A fake smile upon her face to hide away the pain.
A silent tear escapes her eye,
She wishes she could just lay down and die.

She runs to her room and locks the door,
She looks into the mirror and doesn't recognize the girl looking back anymore.
She grabs a razor and cuts in deep,
With the warm read liquid running down her arm, she falls into a deep, deep sleep.

Awaking in a white bed,
She thinks her dream has come true and that she is finally dead.
Until a nurse walks in to check upon her dressing,
Her dream is crushed, and this has caused her stressing.

Her doctors have put her on medication,
Form her family and herself, this will consist of dedication.
And for the rest of her life, she must live mentally and physically scarred,
Never wanting to leave her own backyard.

A feeling of worry,
Nervousness,
Or unease,
Typically about an
Imminent event or
Something with an
Uncertain outcome.

The truth?
I like you, A lot.
You make me happy,
You make me laugh,
Your smart,
Your different,
Your a little crazy,
And awkward,
And your smile alone can make my day. <3

What I feel they may never understand,
it's not like its difficult or hard to comprehend.

But it's what lies behind my every pull,
I've done it so much sometimes I don't even know.

Where'd it all go wrong,
God curse that day.
Little did I know it would take my everything away.

My love, my joy, my truth, my hope,
the day I began you, I blindly signed that oath.
The oath that strangles and tears me apart,
ripping piece by piece, till there's nothing but my heart.

The heart that feels every single thing, no mouth to use,
nothing but sting.

When people look at me, what do they see?
a girl? a friend? a masterpiece?

Knitted together with letdowns and lies,
hiding inside feelings continue to rise.

But my! that masterpiece, look but do not touch!
You can care about the outside,
but isn't that enough?

Well no one likes and undercover mess,
so I just stay right here...
and try to live my 'best'.

Before you **** yourself,
Just remember
That there are
Places you have not been,
And things you have not seen.
And poems to awe,
Art to draw,
Fields to walk through,
People to talk to,
Music to take in,
Games to win,
And books to be read.
So why?
Oh why,
Do you wish
To be dead...

People like you,
The good people,
They always die.

And the bad people,
They do too.

But the weak people,
Like me.

We have inherit
The Earth.

I remember being on the phone til 4:00 in the morning,
I remember you getting shot in the leg while me and you were talking.
As you  were running from those people.
I remember me telling you to eat cat food because you were locked in a room so they couldnt find you and you havent eaten,
I remember you telling me you loved me,
I said i didnt feel the same way,
You almost committed suicide while being at the harbor by your house.
I loved when we video chatted,
You had a transgender friend,
You always wrestled with what you called "it"
I thought it was rude...
But these memories just dont leave.
Because i keep feeding them with Images of what it would be like if i was there.
You told me you loved me,
You dated another girl, i  cried
But you broke up with her for me..
I kinda miss these memories.
I kinda did love  you.
(yeah, i have turned down a lot of people but this one meant the most)
I just  cant get rid of these tired memories. Because i give them your favorite energy drink ;)

Is
She
Naked
Because
You
Love
Her,
Or
Do
You
Love
Her
Because
Shes
Naked?

Feelings i still have  yet to understand,
Fellings that made me feel good about myself,
The love i needed,
The love that felt so good,
But, was it love to you too?
I cant force you to love me,
Did i make you feel good about yourself?
Do you love me?
Is what we have love?
Did i give you the love you needed?

Are you okay?
"Yes, I'm fine"
How you Doing?
"Good"
How was your Day?
"Fine"
How are you at home?
"Cool, I guess"
Hows your love life?
"I don't know"

Guess what!
I'm not fine when i say i'm fine!
I'm not doing good when i say i am!
My day was not fine when i say it was!
When i say i'm good at home i'm not!
And my love life is ******* terrible!
There is the Real Answers!