so intense
the feelings are so intense for someone who doesn't even slightly
feel the same way

what makes me so drawn to you?
what makes you so different?
why can't i shake you?

a connection.
i don't know i just feel a connection
do you feel one too?

you make me feel like i
can get through
like i can do anything

you are more about your actions than your words
your actions show that you care
and it just makes my heart so full

my heart gets so full for you

n every night when you fall asleep,
i think to myself if this is real.

if i actually am falling for you

but i don't want to fall for you.

cause the love,
that type of love,
won't be reciprocated

there's no room for me in that
heart of yours
i don't meet the criteria
unfortunately

so i don't want to fall for you
as i'll only be hurting myself in the process,
causing my heart to ache as much as my forearm.
to be completely torn apart

i don't know how to get rid of you
and i don't want to get rid of you

i don't want to let you go

but how do i dispose of this love from here?

so i like a girl.
and this infatuation
this attraction
has developed in short time,
received in short notice

and it started out with the small things

like how her beautiful tan skin
sorta glowed in the midst of
sunny daylight

like how the polish filled with
hues of blue
seemed to gradually
peel away at the
cracked seams

oh! oh and like how
easy it was to get her
smiling
that way whenever I felt
doubtful
I could always find the
comforting warmth
that the play on her lips
brought

ha, and another is that
she couldn't really hear
when there was a towel wrapped
around her ears
or when a gust of air from the fan
shot pass them,
trapping her in an imperfect silence

yeah it all kinda started with that

but you know I also fall for the big things too

like how her eyes illuminate with the words of her passion
how her voice climbs a little and
her smile getting
impossibly more
breathtaking

yes and I also like the
honesty that
seeps
from her aura
how she stays true to her
opinions
knows her
facts
and acts with such confidence it makes my heart ache in
both envy and longing

and it's crazy,
i mean
how infatuation keeps
chasing me

how it clung to me the
first chance it got

and I wish there was
more time
so that I could make the
feelings seem more
valid

less impulsive
slow them down
a bit

but like I said times before,
I just can't help it.

and I wish I could
shoo them away
like a fly on a typical hot summer's day

cause I know that those
feelings won't be reciprocated

but I guess it's not
natural that way

so inevitably
I'll just have to allow these
visitors
called feelings,
once again,
to stay

sulking and
throwing a
pity party,
day to day.