/Those hardest to love need it most/

You said you were hard to love,
But i fell anyway. We started out just fine,
Becoming close
But as friends and only friends -
We gave each other *** advice for god’s sake -
But then i started to fall.
I told you what was happening
Because you were the one i told everything to,
I tried to forget about it
but

/And I've been in this place before
Fine as we are but we want more/

I remember telling you about my last relationship
That started like this,
I fell for you soon after that.
What I feel, all the time,
For you
Scares me like nothing else does.
I’ve only felt this ache for one other
Girl and that didn’t end
The way I wanted to. You’re so like her
And I can’t bear to think of us ending the way we did.
I’m scared that I going to fall for you and keep falling until I
Crumple on the pavement
Completely broken and alone.

/What if we ruin it all, and we love like fools?
And all we have we lose?/

I know that i love you too much
To live without you,
So i don’t care what happens,
I just want you in my life. As friends or more than that.

/I want you more than I've wanted anyone
Isn't that dangerous?/

It’s true that
I’ve never loved anyone like this before, but
Maybe i’m kidding myself
Thinking anything can happen.
Even though we’re just friends

/The anticipation before the kiss
Mirrored in my shaking lips
Oh God I feel so unprepared/

But I have pictured kissing you
In my head
So many times.
At the airport, laying in bed, tangling my fingers
In your hair.
Loving, soft, gentle,
Heated, passionate, frantic,
Kissing you like my life depends on it.

/Tell me what we choose/

As much as i don’t want to
Feel like this,
To love someone that i can’t be with,
I do. I am hopelessly in love with one of my closest
Friends.
What am i meant to do? Please tell me.

/Tell me what we choose/

It’s no wonder that this song reminds me of you is it?

I have pictured kissing you
In my head
So many times.
At the airport, laying in bed, tangling my fingers
In your hair.
Loving, soft, gentle,
Heated, passionate, frantic,
Kissing you like my life depends on it.

I’m trying to get over you,
I really am.
But i know that when i see you
I might not be able to control myself.

I’m so sorry I can’t be there
To hold you until you feel okay again,
I hate being this far away and
Helpless.

I know you distance yourself,
And I guess that’s okay,
But I just want to know if you’re alright.
Maybe that’s selfish
But that’s just me.
It’s only because I love you
With all my heart.

my heart hurts.
anxiety rushes through my veins,
hot and sharp like tiny daggers sticking
in my chest.
why does love make me like this?
unsure of everything, you and myself.
what if what if what if.
it hurts so much that you’re so far away,
that we can’t make things work,
that you can’t hold me and make everything okay.

I wish I didn’t fall in love so quickly.
It would make things so much easier
If we were just friends.

Sigh.

But here we are.
Hopelessly in love with
A girl across the world.

You’re right. This is hurting me.
But losing you would hurt more.

I know you don’t want to talk about it,
But please,

p l e a s e ,

Just let me know you’re okay. I love you too much.