Am I okay?

I cry every night,
And can't breathe most days.

I sometimes want to die,
And feel buried by all the lies.

I have a broken heart,
And trust issues.

But also,

I smile at the little things,
And laugh for no reason.

I have hope in my heart,
And light in my eyes.

I am getting stronger,
And I will keep trying.

So:
Am I okay?
No.

Will I be okay?
**Yes

Mistakes we make are
lamenting over
past mistakes!

I thank Beryl Lew
HP's numero uno
for being among the few
to appreciate my sombrero.

I love you
not because
you're good looking

I love you
not because
you're caring

I love you
not because
you dote on me

I love you
not because
your smiles are sweet

I love you
not in lust
of your crevice
or orifice
or skin

I love you
because
without you
I feel

incomplete within.

Why did YOU even think to send me message?
Why did YOU work your way back into my life?
Why are YOU treating me like I mean nothing to you?
Why did YOU open your mouth and tell me that, "You never lost feelings for me"?
Why did YOU say, "You love me"?
Why are YOU lying to me?
Why does it take YOU hours to respond to my text?
Why are YOU hurting me when I've been nothing but good to you?
Why are YOU looking at me like a you're zoned out?
Why are YOU not paying attention to me?
Why do I feel like I did something to YOU when I know I didn't?
Why did it have to be YOU out of all people?
Why was I feeling like it was me, when it was YOU?