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Parker 6h
is there a heart still beating deep within my chest?
are there lungs that still fill up with air?
is there a brain that still fires its chemicals?
are there still bones holding me up?

am i alive?
or am i just living?
you stole the oxygen from my lungs when you left.
Throughout my life,
it has been a conundrum.
I wait for someone
to numb the bitter.

The problem is…
Asking for support
or wishing you’d stayβ€”
makes me feel sick.

I’m afraid you might think
I treat you like my therapist.
Seeing me decay as I watch
you walk away.
Pacing through the asylum,
clipboard in hand
as you stand there.
Listening, writing
down the things I sayβ€”
except how to
save a patient.

And that,
is the oldest
conundrum
to exist.
I heard you moved away
to somewhere warmer
where memories won’t
scar a wounded heart
I heard you’re writing
more often in a
positive light
I heard you found
faith in the solitude
of the desert
I heard you are still
drinking our favourite
red wine
I heard your father
took his own life
I’m sorry for hurting you
I was stained with the
selfishness of youth …
Clay.M
Onoma 6h
For want of phylum, a beast strode out

into the coliseum of self-image.

Having slept without a countable care,

knowing peace is good meat.

Among the famous nows of non-doers,

religiously in alternate futures.

Swear that you remind them of someone,

or something they'd rather not be

reminded of.

Perhaps they've already been alive too

long, but not ahead of any timeline.

Which is always no one's concern, these

bodies that will have to go: number three

(beyond biology).

How many would opt for a slap on the

*** on their way out, to commerate their

way in?

That would be like a coroner pinning

open someone's eyes, & telling them it's

impolite to stare.

Simple truths are too much knowledge,

whereas all other sentient life dies

gracefully.

This beast under-lives & over-dies,

because simple truths are too much

knowledge.

Follow that thought wherever it goes,

with your neighbor's mind--then have a

conversation with a stray cat.
Sunny 6h
nicotine
touching me
crushing me
its
hard to breathe
hard to see
im
screaming please
come help me
you
look at me
start to leave
what a ******.

youre always so hard to please.
yet i always want you when youre gone...
why is it so hard to quit? i miss when i could make it through the day without craving flavored freaking air.

(self censoring)
evolove 7h
To me you are the worst person in the world. You abandon me at 9 years old because I had bad behaviour. (Bad behaviour from being sexually abused) I was sexually abused for years and you left me with my abuser. At the time you didn't know. But when I got to be about twenty years old I had gotten comfortable with being able to talk about it because of how many therapists I had told. But then when I built up the courage to tell you, you told me it was all my fault and the argument got so bad the cops were called. When the police arrived they were not happy with you or the situation. And started yelling at you in the kitchen. You fought with them and told them to leave.  You're are so awful and lack any sort of empathy. You left me with no food. Everyday you took my sister and didn't come home until 11:30 pm every night. I was left eating ketchup and mayonnaise sandwiches. YUM!
Now as an adult every special occasion you have to gamble. In fact you gamble almost every second day. You're poor but love money. you fantasize about living in new york. While I fantasize about having a mom I'm able to bond with and have a regular relationship. I can tell you love money more than you love me. They say the root of all evil is the love of money. And I can see how sour it is. It's put me in a place of absolutely hating money I want to be homeless because I can't stand the thought of money.
I take care of you're when you're sick. I make sure you can rest, you have good and something to entertain yourself with. I run to the store when you need anything. Then. Once you're better I start to get the sickness you passed to me and you don't allow me to rest. You will gamble just feet away from my head when I'm tired and sick trying to rest. When I get frustrated with it. You make the biggest ordeal because you're addicted to gambling and lack empathy for others. When I pass any sort of sickness on to anyone I feel terrible. I do my best to offer everything I can to help. It hurts me to say this. But I don't think you deserve to live. You lack empathy for other's and it feels I came from the womb of a psychopath.
All I can hope is that with age I don't turn out to be you.
Getting it off my chest
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