i want to apologize in advance for this post*


heaven tumbled as grasses rebelled
could this be rain?
or mere thought of water


pain now grasp my being
making me wonder if i could love him right

his love wraps me around and i bask in his peace
but i have this fetish that he might make me cry

he has given me no reason to doubt but i chose to live in fear
the result i now bear..... pain
i fear him.. his love, care, and shadow
but i hope he will one day understand  why i chose to say goodbye

closing my PC as he walks closer
i outta understand why