get up* if you keep begging for life's cooperation all you'll get is more exhaustion than you already have collapsing on the kitchen floor after your long day of nothing wishing the bottle of wine wasn't so far out of reach glancing at the hour to be sure to reassure its not yet time no its only been a few moments and already your motivation is buried overwhelmed by your pressing thoughts get up get up deal with yourself and lift yourself off of the hard, cold ground stand alive and breathe like you once told me for i was once you too i know you are stuck, firmly planted in hells dark corners but just remember all the songs you used to sing all the places of which you'd dream all the things all the faces and get up for gods sake look life in the eyes and with your demons face it
i've forgotten what your smile looks like, it's lovely