Surrounded by family
This should be a happy time
A time full of laughter and fun

Instead I am off by myself
I watch them all joking and having a good time
I am alone and hurting
I do not fit in
I do not belong

I should have stayed home
Why did I think this would be good?

My heart hurts but I do not know how to fit in.

I should be giving thanks
Instead I am unhappy
Wishing I could disappear
They would not notice
They would not care.