She pushed what remained on her cigarette into a coffee dish, ran the water, dismissed her regret and then made a silent wish. He threw the laptop against the wall, as if it were some flipflop rubber ball. His head fell into his waiting hands and he spoke in a dead language only he could understand. She waited until mid-night and then she shut the TV, no use hoping for what never would be. She heard the front door open and she knew he was home. How many lies have we reinterpreted as truth? Our wants can sometimes distort reality until it fits what we want to believe, what we need to believe. Like a placebo used against a virus - it can soothe our present by deluding us about the future. Addictions of all kinds can be like quicksand pulling one away from the reality that must be lived in order to understand.