I used to believe everything happened for a reason,
But it's hard to see the reason for this.
It's hard to breathe
In this ocean you left me.
It's hard to see
Through this darkness you led me.
It's hard to feel anything
But this hole that you gave me
And the thoughts that burn
Even when I don't think of you.

Because everything reminds me of you.
I was feeling better
Until I saw your cigarettes in my trash can.
I was feeling better
Until I found your shirt under my bed.
I was feeling better
Until I realized
That this is all *******
And that I ******* need you.

No matter what I've been told I can't shake you.
That I'm strong-
It's because you made me strong-
And that I need to find myself
But I don't because I found myself with you.

Being in love is amazing, because you feel the connection in every way:
Mentally, emotionally, spiritually, physically.
Being in love is terrifying, because you feel the pain in every single way:
Mentally, emotionally, spiritually, physically.
Something so good
Has to have a bad side;
It's just the way the world was made.

I don't know how three days
Can burn my future down to nothing.
I don't know how one second
Can set me back a lifetime.

But I will be fine,
Eventually.
If I lived 18 years without you,
I can survive the rest.
At least,
That's what I keep telling myself.