I don't want to be unhappy
but I am
and it is all my fault

I don't want to be worthless
I let you down
because I've never tried hard enough.

I don't want to be a burden,
yet I am still here.
I am not ready to live alone.

I can't help you.
Make amends.
Repay the love you gave me.
and I can't change how selfish I am.

I can't accept forgiveness
Because even if you granted it,
I would never be able
to forgive myself.

I don't want to be this.
Most days,
I don't want to be me.