recently i've found my eyelids heavy and my neck too weak for my head and a gravitational pull calls my consciousness down into the dark and when i wake it's to people saying, "you shouldn't stay up so late". i nod no, thinking of the nights when the time seems slipping through the cracks in my heart and i can't bear to close my eyes for fear of missing something. it's my private starlight patch; cool air in my hot head and the sound of nothing on the streets like after-rainfall. the still quiet calm of 2am and the curling toes and the dark, always - undeniably - the end.