Onetime, I hit rock bottom but it wasn't really rocky at all it was actually pretty soft it felt like my bed in the middle of a messy room that went unnoticed because there was nothing to provoke me to care there was no feeling soft was just a sensation, no emotion involved I could've been laying on a rock but it would've just given my nerves a different pattern of stimulation it would've just been another irrelevant reality separate from me. The phrase was coined "rock bottom" to scare people away because feeling nothing is worse than feeling a rock bludgeon your body because when you feel nothing there is no reason to ever come back to the surface and live.
Sorry this is very depressing and I'm not sure if it makes sense.