"Don't punish yourself with boys, sweetheart"
She says to me over and over
to try and calm me down
when i called her at 3 in the morning
crying so hard that i couldn't breathe,
only able to mutter "I didn't want to"
through muffled screams
And I thought to myself,
Why would i punish myself with sex?
But now i'm sitting here again
at 3 in the morning
doing things i do not want to do.